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Holidays in the fog
I am a 51 year old woman with long term depression and now anxiety. I used to love the holidays, any holiday, especially Thanksgiving and Christmas. It wasn't about the gifts, but more about everyone seemed to have a smile on their faces. Maybe I just had a smile so bright everyone reflected mine. Now it seems like I walk in a fog, blinking lights, people murmuring, hustle and bustle, but no one is happy, including me. I feel lost and alone when I'm surrounded by people. Not sure what to do to make the fog go away.
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Things are ever changing here. We completed the move, started new jobs and schools. Now I am away at a school for new job.
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It is so good to hear from you! I'm glad that your move went so well and that you are all adjusting to your new place.
How are you feeling?
Teresa
I have been riding the wave, but the wave is starting to dwindle. Now my new job has sent me to school for 2 months away. It's starting to get hard to deal with actually being alone.
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1 ReactionSo happy to hear from you, @micheleinok -- perfectly understandable that your move was crazy. Moves can be an extraordinarily busy and sometimes stressful time in life.
Glad your husband is on board with the move, that he's at his new work locale and your grandson loves his school.
What is your new job, @micheleinok?
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2 ReactionsI am a DOD civilian working on an Air Force Base. I calibrate test equipment.
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2 ReactionsI think the hardest thing is not being able to talk with someone who understands what's going on. I'm so glad I remembered this option.
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I'm glad that you remembered the Connect option as well! How far from home is your work training? Can you get home on weekends?
Keep in touch. I look forward to hearing from you.
Teresa
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That sounds like a very interesting job. Are you enjoying the training?
Teresa
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2 ReactionsSo glad to have you here, @micheleinok. The "door" is open anytime you'd like to talk.
I think you have a really interesting job. Sorry that your training is calling you away from your family for awhile. That would be hard.
How are things going with the depression and anxiety? Are you still experiencing some of the fog feeling you had at the holidays?
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2 ReactionsI am 12 hours away from home, in Mississippi. It is nice here on the Gulf, been keeping busy, but missing family.
I try to video chat with them several times a week, that helps, and Memorial Day weekend, they are coming down, and Grandson will stay until I leave.
It is interesting to be in a class of 5 adults all away from family. We become like our own little family.
Go to lunch, the beach, fishing trips, or catch a movie. I always liked the military for that main reason, everyone pulls together.
My depression is still lingering in the back, but I have been able to keep it at bay for the most part. Sometimes you just have to let the beast out and flex it's muscles. I've started to realize that it's more about how you handle that time and to make sure it doesn't handle you. I have become pretty good at putty the cork back on the bottle.
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