I am a 51 year old woman with long term depression and now anxiety. I used to love the holidays, any holiday, especially Thanksgiving and Christmas. It wasn’t about the gifts, but more about everyone seemed to have a smile on their faces. Maybe I just had a smile so bright everyone reflected mine. Now it seems like I walk in a fog, blinking lights, people murmuring, hustle and bustle, but no one is happy, including me. I feel lost and alone when I’m surrounded by people. Not sure what to do to make the fog go away.