I lost my significant other to cancer about two months ago.

Thanks. But I don't know if I will ever be happy again.
Kent

@kentmcdaniel I lost my husband of 57 years May 12th just 45 short days after being diagnosed with grade 4 glioblastoma. Because he was non verbal, could not speak, we never got the chance to have any conversations. I talked to him constantly but he could never reply. I cry every day, numerous times each day. I have no closure since I have no idea what he was feeling, what he wanted to say, if he was ready to give up, etc.. We had our first great grand child who he never got to meet yet still I find no joy now in life. I feel the loneliness, sadness, pain of this loss and pray everyday for strength to continue on without him. I have even wondered if I will ever see him again and if that love will still be there. Just don't give up. Find a grief support group which won't bring her back but also talk to her.

@kjsthljc1 After my husband died--he was 36 and this was over thirty years ago--I found the first 3-4 months to be nightmarish, and then gradual improvement and eventually a return not to who I was but to a different but good life. I don't have any beliefs or experiences about seeing him again, but I can say the love remains. I feel it whenever I think of him and see it in my daughter's face and see a lot of him in my 7 year old grand-daughter who of course he never met. When he died it was hard to suddenly find myself divided from him. He experienced illness, a coma, and death and I experienced having to go on. Usually marriage is about sharing, and this wasn't. Very difficult. Please take care of yourself as best you can. I found it does get easier. Wishing you the same.

Just know that you’re going through one of the hardest things a person can go through. There’s just no easy way but it does get easier than what you’re going through now. I lost my wife 10 months ago after 58 years of marriage. I have found grief groups helpful and have a grief therapist. Many people don’t understand the pain unless they have been through it. Beside losing your partner you have lost plans for the future as well. You just have to focus on your needs now. Maybe a doctor could be helpful but something longer term I found to be more helpful. I found that it took effort that I didn’t want to make but almost had to in order to get through. All the best to you. It does get easier with time and work.

As time goes by, I start feeling better and that loss feels more distant and less painful. I try to focus on my families verbally stated emotional strengths they had given to me in the past.
Kent

Kent, you will survive. It will be different and probably fairly difficult at first - however, you will survive. My wife, Ann, passed just seven months ago, just one week after we celebrated our 73rd anniversary. Ann was in a memory care facility at the time, had been there for exactly one month, after suffering for more than six years with dementia. As sole caregiver for that journey through the dementia minefield, I've been grieving every day/night, without stopping. The only event that really has provided some temporary help has been a grief support group, dedicated to those who have lost a spouse or partner. We meet once a week, and I look forward to those meetings more than anything else. My suggestion to you, would be to locate such a group and share your grieving with others who understand. It will, hopefully, bring you some relief from what you're experiencing now, at least for a time - and give you the opportunity to share your experience plus gain insight as to how others are dealing with this terrible pain called grief. Stay strong, don't allow grief to overcome you. Find support from friends and family, join a grief support group, as I described - Take care of yourself, don't let the grief overtake you. Good luck, stay well.