Thank you and I'm staying on these discussion boards every night for support and so I don't fall apart again. I've managed to compose myself today.Im using deep breathing, talked to my priest, my mentor whom ironically thinks I'm his and looked into my beautiful new Grandaughters eyes and decided I was lyosing my faith and needed to get it back. God didn't bring me this far with going back to school,letting me spend so much time helping with grandchildren while son was in Iraq 3x,working for myself to fall now after a nasty divorce and losing most of my family(parents &4 brothers) not to be