@pattymac, Patty, the LAST thing you need in your life right now is "beating yourself up" ie "I keep blaming myself bc I put on so much weight " .. It is AMAZING how much positive mental attitude has on our lives! I am a BIG believer in nightly saying my "gratitudes" .. saying AT LEAST 3 gratitudes nightly out loud. It may just be that the sun shone that day .. that a stranger smiled at me .. that a friend called me that day .. WHATEVER .. but life ALWAYS hands us things we can be grateful for! Focus on the happy .. focus on the positive .. you will be amazed on how that can improve the quality of you life each and every day! FOCUS on : "I will put my energy into what I can control and let go of what I CANNOT control." Patty .. you CAN control making an attempt to focus on "calm and happy" .. you CANNOT control the waiting. Put your energies into what you CAN control .. be just as happy and serene in this period as time as you possibly can. .. AND finding a GOOD Pulmonologist! REMEMBER "Happiness is an Inside Job!" I am sending you Positive Energy right Now .. Plus a Hug! Katherine

Oh, I know what you mean about waiting. Wait for an apt, get a test and wait some more. I am waiting for an apt with a neurologist in 3 weeks. I guess we just have to hang on.

My first name is Patty:) And I just noticed my picture is sideways lol! Hmm wonder what happened there!

Mass as in church? : )