I struggle with wanting to die everyday

@ginnysnow

No

@earline14

aww,can i help

Every morning I just want to die, nothing helps

This is just my opinion, and yes, I know what they say about people's opinions, but in my view, wanting to end your own life is NOT selfish. Everyone has their breaking point, and I've come very close to my own on more than one occasion. If your family are so inconsiderate that they're not willing or able to offer you any assistance, then what they'd think if you followed through on your wishes for the pain to just stop don't amount to a damn thing.
The only person you should be thinking about is yourself.

@earline14
Okay, Can we at least sit and talk with others HERE EVERY TODAY and agree to postpone it for the NEXT DAY?

Now let's see what you have told us: You say,
1- "My few friends have left me" and your children...
2- "have their own issues and can not or will not help me."

But where's the THIRD PERSON, who IS and always has been with you?
Isn't that person ALSO wants to help YOU even if you seem to be drowning that voice of yours, even if feeble?

Are u with us?
Can you hear us who are almost screaming with their damp eyes to HOLD it at least the next day?

Look, are you sitting? if not sit down and let's go thru what u have told us here. You have said others -- friends and children -- have given up on you. So What! A'nt there also people besides those who don't care about you also alive and could become the kind of 'friend' who you could confide into and you in them?

Now imagine what kind of people YOU want. And this is going to be tough but also get you closer to what you Truly Want.
Would you really want someone who too has given up on Even LISTENING to others who are trying to help him/her?
Of course not -- you want people who LIKE themselves. Like people like others tho we all get 'unlikable' now and then, which is human.

So really the question is what do You think You don't like yourself about? We a'nt born disliking ourselves, though early age upbringing can impact our sense of self. And yet as Grown Ups (yes growing also means growing Out our past keeps us back) we make our lives among others being our own Authentic selves, each with their unique gifts, warts and all.

Shall we talk tomorrow....let's do that!

I often feel the same way but not as intense as you have expressed. Can you find ad admit yourself to an up-scale facility that is reputable and has top-notch practitioners, Drs not NPs!) It sounds as tho you have had more than your share of misfortune and probably suffer from PTSD as well as depression as you've stated. Is there assistance in perhaps a patient advocacy organization. At this point I think you need to be led gently to where you can receive quality care. This is not about your family it is about you! So save your energy in thought and deed for yourself - if that makes sense. please reach out if you can, I will be willing to at least lend a consistent ear and might be of some help!

@mrmacabre
Yes there is a time and way to die by oneself, and Socrates has shown us that death: Sitting among FRIENDS and well-wishers as poison made it's way slowly through his body. He was offered by his friends a safe quick exit but he CHOSE death and talked why it was a Morally superior decision.
I'd like that death. In the West we come close to it what is called MAID.

It may still be "selfish" to those around me if they think MY life owes more toward others, especially if they are dearest-and-closest than to me, but how does one weighs pain on one side against the other's even if pain is the sole criterion, an arbitrary choice.

What we are doing for this person to avoid a likely flawed thinking, which can be dealt with CBT/DBT, essentially a way to THINK Clearly before taking this irreversible step.

This looks like a great help: https://nowmattersnow.org/

@earline14 I am so incredibly sorry. Bless your heart. You’ve obvious been through hell. I don’t have answers but what I can tell you is pray and keep the faith. My sister age 60 took her life 2 years ago and left us all literally just in disbelief. She hung herself in the door. Please don’t take your life I’m sure you have those who love you very much. Reach out to them and suicide prevention. I’m completely distraught that my sister is gone it’s terrible for the entire family. Devastating to so so many. Good luck I will keep you in prayer groups.

I feel the same after struggling badly with anxiety/panic/depressive disorder every day for the last 5 years. The despair is all consuming and I'm thinking that is the only way out