It sounds like you are putting up a fight against this depression good for you. Are you seeing a therapist? and how is it going.

I'm not seeing one now, haven't for maybe 18 months.

@jimhd you may want to look into group sessions or activities in your community that interest you. I know that getting out even for an hour or two helps my mood and sometimes I talk to neighbors that usually annoy me so I feel more alive. Its those little things I do like even taking my scooter out to go shopping that makes my day. Little activities can be just as helpful to your health than those long tiresome tasks that you do not want to do but feel you have too

I'm a Hospice volunteer, and visit patients weekly. I also volunteer at church, playing the piano and leading worship for the Sunday evening service, and right now, I'm directing a Christmas choir, with weekly rehearsals. I like to do those things, though I don't receive enjoyment from them like I used to.

There are activities that I do which I do not enjoy as much as I used to but I continue to do for the socializing I live in an apartment so I get alot of interactions with people so when I can get chance to be alone with my TV and cat I suck it up. There are times that I feel depressed but I push myself

We live 7 miles from town, on 10 acres. We have neighbors, but our houses are pretty far apart, and I only interact with them if we happen to see each other outside. There tend to be more days in the winter when I really don't want to get out of my recliner, but I usually do manage to do something every day. Today, I'm waiting for it to warm up enough to put sealer on a landing I built last week by the shed door. I don't know - it's almost noon, and only up to 39. We'll see.

jimhd for some Winter can be depressing in it's self. I like the cool are and do not like the summer hit. It's good to hear you're making an effort to get out and about. With all that you do I sure those that you do help would miss you if you weren't there. It is to hear from you please keep it up. I'm selfish I like reading the positive things you are doing. Keep pushing

Today was a long day. I met with the pastor to discuss details of the Christmas music service on 12/18. Order of service, platform arrangements, rehearsal schedule, etc. I spent the rest of the day editing the piano score for the choir music, and acquainting myself with the church keyboard - a good Korg. Then I wrote a rough draft of the score for the keyboard player. I had to play with the instrument to listen to the sounds and map out which sound I wanted used in various places. I need to write scores for the keyboard, guitars and bass before Sunday, so I can distribute them to the musicians. This is a busy time of the year. My wife commented last night that she was happy to see me doing music again, after a long break.

Hi @jimhd , I have not been on much lately, however when I saw your post I was happy to see that you sound so much better than the last time I read a post from you when I had been online. I am glad that you find yourself busy just be sure that you don't turn that into being overwhelmed (no pun intended). Also remember that you do have your wife, who it appears, does notice and acknowledge your change in mood. I believe it was you who posted at one time that she was one of the reasons that you were still here.
From someone who realizes more than ever how nice it is/was to have my spouse as one possible reason to resist the urge, be thankful for that as I now have no reason/ no one to see just how depressed I am and to help pull me up from that dark place that keeps calling out for me....
Keep it up @jimhd, I know how hard it is or can be, especially at this time of year. Good work on your part.

nother thing that I think helps me is my volunteer work for Hospice. I visit a few people each week for around an hour. Mostly all I do is have conversation with them, but I've done other things, which is part of being a volunteer. I've delivered meds to patients, divided an Iris bed, picked things up at a store, helped a blind man look up phone numbers when he needed legal help, and various other little things. I just offer my services to them, to help in any appropriate way. Thursday, I'm going to deliver some meals for Thanksgiving dinner.

I hope you'll discover another support person soon.