Aren't you tired of living and waiting for things to get better?

I empathize since today is a particularly sad day and I just found mayo option. I can't sleep and it is causing me such anxiety and depression again. Yet I know there must be help and can't give up. That's not who I am.

Oh, I’ve been crying all day, am on the verge of a panic attack.
I am in the mild stage of Alzheimer’s dementia. It’s really hitting home that I’m going to have to sell everything I own and move into a 500 sq. ft room in the near future…
I know everything is just “stuff” but I’m happy here with my stuff. I have pretty artwork, art glass some of which I made etc.
I live alone. In home care is very expensive too.

It’s just a bad situation. I’m praying for my Father God’s perfect guidance. He is never wrong, always faithful, and He loves me.

@SusanEllen66

Have you thought of taking pictures of your favorite items and printing? Even though can not take the actual items with you, you can take a memory in a photo album. Maybe add a note about each piece about why it was important to you.

I wish you strength as you go through a difficult time.

I feel like you do. I can’t sleep, have depression and anxiety. I have neuropathy and Diabetes 2. Do you like your doctors?
Do they help you with medication for these problems?

Since I found better doctors, I have been doing better. I specifically take Rx for 1. Sleeping (Trazadone LOW dose) 2. Bipolar l 3. for Diabetes and 4. Vitamins for severe neuropathy.

They all help.

There is help. By the way, I found a lot of help here on Mayo Clinic.

Be well.

@dkggvaz I am glad you posted here on Mayo Clinic Connect. Would you like to tell us what makes it a sad day for you? Are you getting some help with your concerns? It's good that you know there is help for you, and that you cannot give up!
Ginger

Ginger just your reply helps. Thanks. I spoke had a phone appointment with my psychiatrist this afternoon who is working with me and have a change and plan. Including the VA s CBTIcoach ap which I just utilized. I am feeling more optimistic now.

@dkggvaz I'm glad you had that appointment, and found a different direction to head towards! Isn't that great you have the resources, and your psychiatrist could offer this to you!

Will you let us know how this all works out for you?
Ginger

@roch I thought of that, however the pictures will become meaningless down the road…

Thank you

Awesome advice!!!

I can so relate to how you feel. Not all the time, but having stage IV kidney cancer and then having seizures start, and living with it for 7 yrs now it gets old. Currently a new med for the cancer has been stopped due to low sodium.....which it causes.
But I feel the reality of life being a paradox very acutely......and as I age out the paradox tightrope becomes tricker to keep walking fearlessly because of our culture's denial of mortality.
I'm tired of being afraid and of how the quality of care I get has tanked since covid, which I'm still terrified of. Palliative care here is a joke...they are open
M-Th, 830-430. So far with me their main objective is to get my polst corrected it seems. Mets are in pancreas yet they refuse to do arterial phasing on scans and I don't know why. They can see them better that way.
Is the reason there are still no cures because of the money they make dabbling in systemic meds better than finding ways to remove it ?
I spend alot of time for comfort watching old TV, sitting outside and taking walks around the neighborhood.