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Welcome to the Caregivers group on Mayo Clinic Connect.
Caring for someone can be rewarding, but it is also very demanding and can be isolating. Let's use this space to connect with other caregivers, share experiences, talk frankly about the tough stuff without judgement and to provide a virtual shoulder to lean on.

I'm Colleen, and I'm the moderator of this group, and Community Director of Connect. I look forwarding to welcoming you and introducing you to other members. Feel free to browse the topics or start a new one.

Grab a cup of tea, or beverage of you choice, and let's chat. Why not start by introducing yourself?

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@kw1904861

Hi.. Thanks for letting me join.. Not sure what to say... My husband has brain injury and I think its getting tuff around here... He's up and moving around when he's not sleeping... He's angry to me a lot.. Any advise. ?

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For kw1904861, honestly, after going through 16 years of brain injury and the death of a daughter and 7 years of illness and death of a spouse there's not much advise that I got that changed the situation. Every body has a different set point about when enough is enough and we dont get a manual at birth that tells us where it is. The only "advise" I can offer is to make yourself knowledgeable about resources, make yourself available to real friends who can listen well or find a support group where you'll meet like minded people in the same kind of unexpected twist to life we here have had daily. Keep track of how well you sleep, how safe you are in the house and whether you can maintain your own health. Without those three (there's probably more) you are in decline and need help for yourself.

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@kw1904861

Hi.. Thanks for letting me join.. Not sure what to say... My husband has brain injury and I think its getting tuff around here... He's up and moving around when he's not sleeping... He's angry to me a lot.. Any advise. ?

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Hi @kw1904861 Nice to have you here and glad you found Mayo Connect! We are open to all and pleased you have come here to share and hopefully find some support. I'm Scott and I was my wife's caregiver for 14+ years. She fought her war with brain cancer and while each patient and their condition is different, I know how challenging brain injury caregiving can be! Luckily for me she never got combative, but my son's FIL did when he struggled with dementia.

In my wife's situation her neurologist once told us that patients tend to lash out at the person they feel the safest with. It is the person they believe they can show their emotions to and still be supported by. Seems counterintuitive, but after awhile it made sense to me. My wife often became angry with me. Often it was over some tiny thing, perhaps something I had overlooked, or simply something she thought I had! When this happens with our loved ones it is never easy to keep saying to ourselves, and believing, that it is the disease 'talking' and not our loved one. But chronic disease is a beast and does take its toll on even the strongest of patients -- and caregivers.

Caregiving is a tough job and when it is not tough it either tougher or the toughest! We can each only do what we are able to. In my son's case they made decision to move his FIL to a faciltity since he was too large and too aggressive for his wife to be able to handle. I wish I had some magic advice, but what I can say is to remember that Superman and Wonder Woman only exist in the comics! There are no superheroes in caregiving. We are only human!

Are there certain aspects of caregiving that you struggle with more than others?

Stength, courage, and peace!

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@IndianaScott

Hi @kw1904861 Nice to have you here and glad you found Mayo Connect! We are open to all and pleased you have come here to share and hopefully find some support. I'm Scott and I was my wife's caregiver for 14+ years. She fought her war with brain cancer and while each patient and their condition is different, I know how challenging brain injury caregiving can be! Luckily for me she never got combative, but my son's FIL did when he struggled with dementia.

In my wife's situation her neurologist once told us that patients tend to lash out at the person they feel the safest with. It is the person they believe they can show their emotions to and still be supported by. Seems counterintuitive, but after awhile it made sense to me. My wife often became angry with me. Often it was over some tiny thing, perhaps something I had overlooked, or simply something she thought I had! When this happens with our loved ones it is never easy to keep saying to ourselves, and believing, that it is the disease 'talking' and not our loved one. But chronic disease is a beast and does take its toll on even the strongest of patients -- and caregivers.

Caregiving is a tough job and when it is not tough it either tougher or the toughest! We can each only do what we are able to. In my son's case they made decision to move his FIL to a faciltity since he was too large and too aggressive for his wife to be able to handle. I wish I had some magic advice, but what I can say is to remember that Superman and Wonder Woman only exist in the comics! There are no superheroes in caregiving. We are only human!

Are there certain aspects of caregiving that you struggle with more than others?

Stength, courage, and peace!

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The struggle of care giving I think I have with him is the name calling.,.. I my self struggle with depression and It does bother me...

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@kw1904861

The struggle of care giving I think I have with him is the name calling.,.. I my self struggle with depression and It does bother me...

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That is a tough one @kw1904861 Very tough. My wife often resorted to name calling as well as complaining to others that I was the worst caregiver in the world for some reason or another often using some very hurtful language in doing so. I'd tell myself it was 'the disease' talking, but it often still hurt!

One day my wife did say to me, in an unguarded moment, how afraid she was 'all day long, all the time, week in week out'. That did help me manage it a bit better, but it still stung each time it happened. It also came home to roost with me when I happened catch my hand between the door and the frame when she fell against it. I was angry, let loose with a few not so choice words, and said how much I hurt. She smiled at me and said 'sorry, but maybe now you know how I feel everyday'. It helped me gain a bit of missing perspective on my part. 🙂

For a good part of my work career I was a fundraiser for nonprofit organizations. I used to say being a fundraiser gave me thick skin since I got told 'no' so many times, but it surely wasn't thick enough for some of these things in caregiving.

I remember once she was angry with me and was sputtering trying to come up with whatever name she was going to call me. She finally spit out 'you, you, you, non-Italian!' (She was 100% Italian and I was the first non-Italian to ever marry into the family.) After she said it we both just stared at each other and then started to laugh! At least that once we found humor in the situation!

If you don't mind me asking, how long have you been caring for your husband?

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@IndianaScott

Great suggestion, @debbraw I know each hospice organization is different, but the only caveat I would add to this for @pattyinal is to be sure to check with her hospice, insurance, etc. very carefully on any costs on this. In our case my wife's hospice care was only covered after it was officially prescribed by her physician. Then once prescribed be certain your choice is 'in network'.

I only bring this up as a cautionary tale given that I am continuing to pay down what was over $40,000 in uncovered expenses from early on with our hospice.

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Wow @IndianaScott - That is terrible that you have that kind of residual bills - and from Hospice. I had no idea. Thank you so much for raising this issue.

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@IndianaScott

That is a tough one @kw1904861 Very tough. My wife often resorted to name calling as well as complaining to others that I was the worst caregiver in the world for some reason or another often using some very hurtful language in doing so. I'd tell myself it was 'the disease' talking, but it often still hurt!

One day my wife did say to me, in an unguarded moment, how afraid she was 'all day long, all the time, week in week out'. That did help me manage it a bit better, but it still stung each time it happened. It also came home to roost with me when I happened catch my hand between the door and the frame when she fell against it. I was angry, let loose with a few not so choice words, and said how much I hurt. She smiled at me and said 'sorry, but maybe now you know how I feel everyday'. It helped me gain a bit of missing perspective on my part. 🙂

For a good part of my work career I was a fundraiser for nonprofit organizations. I used to say being a fundraiser gave me thick skin since I got told 'no' so many times, but it surely wasn't thick enough for some of these things in caregiving.

I remember once she was angry with me and was sputtering trying to come up with whatever name she was going to call me. She finally spit out 'you, you, you, non-Italian!' (She was 100% Italian and I was the first non-Italian to ever marry into the family.) After she said it we both just stared at each other and then started to laugh! At least that once we found humor in the situation!

If you don't mind me asking, how long have you been caring for your husband?

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He fell last august.... So going on almost a year now...

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@kw1904861

He fell last august.... So going on almost a year now...

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Hi again, @kw1904861 I am so sorry to read that his troubles began with a fall.

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Hello to other Caregivers... I've been on Connect for about a year now, but mostly for learning more about Diabetes and Neuropathy.. I was recently diagnosed Diabetic Type 2 and have neuropathy in both feet.. and moving up my legs now.. My husband had been helping me through my new illness, but now our oldest son's Diabetes and Parkinson's have effected him to the point that he said he is ready to stop dialysis. He lives in another state, is not married but has a caregiver who comes in every day to help him with meds, meals, etc. His only child, a daughter (28 years old) lives with him at present, too.. She works full time at a stressful job.. and now I've been here for a month to help him through all his preparations for dying. Some of his friends were here yesterday to have a meal and reminesce old times for one last time.. He has another set of friends that he would like to come see him also, before he stops dialysis. Needless to say, this is a sad sad time for all of us who know and love him..

My main concern for him right now is this: We've been told that by stopping dialysis he will have an easy painless passing.. But if his body begins filling up with fluids that he will suffocate slowly. Of course, as his mom I pray for him to pass on without pain.. and please God, not to suffocate slowly. Hospice has been contacted, but he has declined them starting with him so far. I have talked with him about this, but he does make his own decisions.. He said he doesn't want them in and out of the house to see him. He can't seem to understand that it doesn't have to be that way, but would be a big help emotionally for the rest of us, too..

My son has been hard to get along with for most of his adult life, but now, with our time together we have become so much closer than we were since he was a child. That has been a huge reward for both of us.. We talk openly and freely about his dying and what he wants us all to know now. His daughter has always been dominated by him, but also is ready to get on and live her own life. Her mother is not much part of her life and never has been, but I and her grandpa have always been here for her and she relies on us to be her family.. Of course, we are in our mid-70's and hope to see her with a loving partner someday.. She is bipolar, but on medication and in a program that has already helped her immensely.. She is responsible, cute, and reliable.. and very cautious about who she allows into her life. She has a very responsible job and the company and workmates respect and rely on her technical abilities.

This is the absolute hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I am determined to be here for my little family for the duration. They mean everything to me in this life. but meanwhile, my sweet ole husband is living alone in the next state and I miss him so much. He must be at home though, as he requires peace and quiet. It is far too disruptive for all of us when he is here... sigh...

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@hotfooted

Hello to other Caregivers... I've been on Connect for about a year now, but mostly for learning more about Diabetes and Neuropathy.. I was recently diagnosed Diabetic Type 2 and have neuropathy in both feet.. and moving up my legs now.. My husband had been helping me through my new illness, but now our oldest son's Diabetes and Parkinson's have effected him to the point that he said he is ready to stop dialysis. He lives in another state, is not married but has a caregiver who comes in every day to help him with meds, meals, etc. His only child, a daughter (28 years old) lives with him at present, too.. She works full time at a stressful job.. and now I've been here for a month to help him through all his preparations for dying. Some of his friends were here yesterday to have a meal and reminesce old times for one last time.. He has another set of friends that he would like to come see him also, before he stops dialysis. Needless to say, this is a sad sad time for all of us who know and love him..

My main concern for him right now is this: We've been told that by stopping dialysis he will have an easy painless passing.. But if his body begins filling up with fluids that he will suffocate slowly. Of course, as his mom I pray for him to pass on without pain.. and please God, not to suffocate slowly. Hospice has been contacted, but he has declined them starting with him so far. I have talked with him about this, but he does make his own decisions.. He said he doesn't want them in and out of the house to see him. He can't seem to understand that it doesn't have to be that way, but would be a big help emotionally for the rest of us, too..

My son has been hard to get along with for most of his adult life, but now, with our time together we have become so much closer than we were since he was a child. That has been a huge reward for both of us.. We talk openly and freely about his dying and what he wants us all to know now. His daughter has always been dominated by him, but also is ready to get on and live her own life. Her mother is not much part of her life and never has been, but I and her grandpa have always been here for her and she relies on us to be her family.. Of course, we are in our mid-70's and hope to see her with a loving partner someday.. She is bipolar, but on medication and in a program that has already helped her immensely.. She is responsible, cute, and reliable.. and very cautious about who she allows into her life. She has a very responsible job and the company and workmates respect and rely on her technical abilities.

This is the absolute hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I am determined to be here for my little family for the duration. They mean everything to me in this life. but meanwhile, my sweet ole husband is living alone in the next state and I miss him so much. He must be at home though, as he requires peace and quiet. It is far too disruptive for all of us when he is here... sigh...

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If your son knows the Lord, and have ask him to come to live in heart and accept him as his savior, then only God knows when he will take him. Pray for your husband because, he needs your faith and strength. It is those who are left behind, that suffer most. You need your faith ,and your love for God to give you peace in all that you do. Prayers for you are here for you.

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@hotfooted

Hello to other Caregivers... I've been on Connect for about a year now, but mostly for learning more about Diabetes and Neuropathy.. I was recently diagnosed Diabetic Type 2 and have neuropathy in both feet.. and moving up my legs now.. My husband had been helping me through my new illness, but now our oldest son's Diabetes and Parkinson's have effected him to the point that he said he is ready to stop dialysis. He lives in another state, is not married but has a caregiver who comes in every day to help him with meds, meals, etc. His only child, a daughter (28 years old) lives with him at present, too.. She works full time at a stressful job.. and now I've been here for a month to help him through all his preparations for dying. Some of his friends were here yesterday to have a meal and reminesce old times for one last time.. He has another set of friends that he would like to come see him also, before he stops dialysis. Needless to say, this is a sad sad time for all of us who know and love him..

My main concern for him right now is this: We've been told that by stopping dialysis he will have an easy painless passing.. But if his body begins filling up with fluids that he will suffocate slowly. Of course, as his mom I pray for him to pass on without pain.. and please God, not to suffocate slowly. Hospice has been contacted, but he has declined them starting with him so far. I have talked with him about this, but he does make his own decisions.. He said he doesn't want them in and out of the house to see him. He can't seem to understand that it doesn't have to be that way, but would be a big help emotionally for the rest of us, too..

My son has been hard to get along with for most of his adult life, but now, with our time together we have become so much closer than we were since he was a child. That has been a huge reward for both of us.. We talk openly and freely about his dying and what he wants us all to know now. His daughter has always been dominated by him, but also is ready to get on and live her own life. Her mother is not much part of her life and never has been, but I and her grandpa have always been here for her and she relies on us to be her family.. Of course, we are in our mid-70's and hope to see her with a loving partner someday.. She is bipolar, but on medication and in a program that has already helped her immensely.. She is responsible, cute, and reliable.. and very cautious about who she allows into her life. She has a very responsible job and the company and workmates respect and rely on her technical abilities.

This is the absolute hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I am determined to be here for my little family for the duration. They mean everything to me in this life. but meanwhile, my sweet ole husband is living alone in the next state and I miss him so much. He must be at home though, as he requires peace and quiet. It is far too disruptive for all of us when he is here... sigh...

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My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. We dealt with a very similar situation with my mother-in-law. She was in end stage renal failure and along with osteoporosis was no longer able to care for herself. She decided that she was stopping her dialysis. Her mental faculties were impaired because of the kidney damage and thought if she stopped the dialysis she had to stop all medications including pain meds. She decided to do this just before the Christmas holidays.

I had a talk with her and told her that if she was truly ready to end her life that was her decision however I wanted her to think about those around her that would be affected by it. I asked her to think about her son and daughter and her grandsons and how it would affect them to lose her at Christmas. I reminded her that her death at Christmas would make a very happy family time a very sad time for a very long time. I lost my Dad at Christmas many years before and it affected me deeply. I also told her that she could stop dialysis but continue her medications. She wouldn't listen to me.

I talked with my husband and we decided to contact Hospice for advise. We didn't ask them to get involved, we just wanted information. However, they immediately visited her at the nursing facility and we hadn't even talked to her about getting them involved. The Hospice nurse immediately got her set up on morphine for the pain. The nurse also let her know she could continue her medications even though she stopped dialysis. We already knew that stopping the dialysis could be a painful process especially when her body began filling up with fluids and toxins that were no longer being cleaned from her system.

We visited her to discuss Hospice and saw that the morphine was giving her much needed relief from her pain. She had decided that her family was trying to stop her from doing what she wanted. She told us that the facility staff had contacted Hospice for her. We told her that we had contacted them for her because we wanted her to be comfortable.

She passed away on January 9, 2000. She was able to spend a final Christmas with her children and grandchildren enjoying each other's company and for a short while being the Mom and Grandma that we all remembered so well.

My heart goes out to your husband. I'm sure he would prefer to be with you and his son but I understand not being able to be around all the stress. Maybe you can go home for a day or two so he can see for himself that you are doing fine. I hope your son will allow Hospice to just come talk to him about what they can do for him and the family. They can be an invaluable source of assistance and guidance for all of you.

Hugs and Prayers.

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