Feeling lonely and want to vent

Very sorry about folks dealing with loneliness. I was a violent crime victim in 1982. Instead of people helping and supporting me...like bats flaying out of a cave, they all abandoned me. Friendship never really returned to me. A bit, but not much. I have had 20 year periods where not a single person visited my house.

It is enormously destructive.

Whatever folks can to out there to get some kind of socialization, I strongly recommend it.

Even if it is just going into therapy.

That is better than nothing.

And see if there are ways you can re-explore people from the past. Oh, you know, there was a friend in high school that you just lost contact with and there are no negative feelings.

Just see if there are any possibilities around.

Yes I know how you feel. Alone during the day. I grew up in an abusive home. My ex was abusive verbally and was an Alcoholic, his family blamed me for his alcoholism. Actually looked many things up on the internet he used to drink Nyquil by the bottle (I'm 74 now) this was back in the 1970's. Nyquil back then was 50% alcohol. He was 5'10 and weighed about 130 lbs, weight was about 20 lbs less than me, I didn't realize Nyquil had so much alcohol in it. Plus he drank between 3-5 6 packs of beer every night. I never drank because my Mom lectured us about alcohol because her father was an alcoholic. He was an orphan at age 13 (born in 1885 MN) and raised himself on the Railroad working with adult men (learned to drink around adult men) Plus do you know how many Railroad accidents there were in the late 1880's & early 1990's, I had hundreds' of postcards from his collection (should have never given to my abusive father later in my life) that showed head on collisions of the trains). I have an old newspaper that mentions my grandfather Albert Miller having his back being injured in one of the train accidents. There were not a lot of drugs back then and I'm sure that men turned to drinking to dull the pain. Thus my mother lectured us to no end about drinking. I have no family left, Mother dead, father also, abusive sister also. I can't get out much because I have many health issues, Neuropathy, back problems, depression, from car accident as passenger, t-boned, fractured pelvis, sacro-iliac, 16 major surgeries, too many health issues to mention, plus neighbors giving me a bad time for feeding the crows which I love, they are the only things that bring me joy. But nasty neighbor can make noise at 5:30 AM in morning or 10-11 pm at nightl with cars and everything else, shoot off fireworks, rev his motocycle and car engines. GRRRRR

I read a comment from a military veteran that said “ I don’t need an army to defeat my enemies, I just need 6 people commited to me and my cause and I can defeat any enemy!” I have had “friends” come and go throughout my life, I have learned the hard way that there are some that are not committed to me and my cause. I have subsequently narrowed my friends to that 6 that have that commitment because they know I have their back as well!! During this part of my life journey receiving a lung transplant they have knocked it out the park for my wife and I!!! Find your 6, keep a positive mind set for yourself, and know that there are many people you will never meet thinking and praying for you!

Yes I know how you feel. Alone during the day. I grew up in an abusive home. My ex was abusive verbally and was an Alcoholic, his family blamed me for his alcoholism. Actually looked many things up on the internet he used to drink Nyquil by the bottle (I'm 74 now) this was back in the 1970's. Nyquil back then was 50% alcohol. He was 5'10 and weighed about 130 lbs, weight was about 20 lbs less than me, I didn't realize Nyquil had so much alcohol in it. Plus he drank between 3-5 6 packs of beer every night. I never drank because my Mom lectured us about alcohol because her father was an alcoholic. He was an orphan at age 13 (born in 1885 MN) and raised himself on the Railroad working with adult men (learned to drink around adult men) Plus do you know how many Railroad accidents there were in the late 1880's & early 1990's, I had hundreds' of postcards from his collection (should have never given to my abusive father later in my life) that showed head on collisions of the trains). I have an old newspaper that mentions my grandfather Albert Miller having his back being injured in one of the train accidents. There were not a lot of drugs back then and I'm sure that men turned to drinking to dull the pain. Thus my mother lectured us to no end about drinking. I have no family left, Mother dead, father also, abusive sister also. I can't get out much because I have many health issues, Neuropathy, back problems, depression, from car accident as passenger, t-boned, fractured pelvis, sacro-iliac, 16 major surgeries, too many health issues to mention, plus neighbors giving me a bad time for feeding the crows which I love, they are the only things that bring me joy. But nasty neighbor can make noise at 5:30 AM in morning or 10-11 pm at nightl with cars and everything else, shoot off fireworks, rev his motocycle and car engines. GRRRRR