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Need help! Depression and anxiety

Posted by pirateking @pirateking, Jul 22, 2016

I don't know where else to go without going to a hospital. I've always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I've been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.

She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don't think it is working.

My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can't concentrate. It feels like I've literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I'm beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I've never had such violent thoughts before. I've had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don't want to do that.

When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I'm having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not

I also have headaches, I'm pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.

This is terrifying. I've never felt like this in my entire life and I don't know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn't around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.

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Colleen Young, Connect Director | @colleenyoung | Oct 3, 2016
In reply to @sandytoes14 "@pirateking Just wondering how you are feeling? I have had anxiety and depression since I was..." + (show)
@sandytoes14

@pirateking Just wondering how you are feeling? I have had anxiety and depression since I was a child. I take Trazodone at bedtime for vivid dreams/ recollections of abuse. I'm also on Cymbalta it helps with anxiety but I take it for Fibromyalgia. When I get panic attacks, I take .25 mg of Klonopin. I hope you are under the care of a psychiatrist and are feeling better.

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Jim, Volunteer Mentor | @jimhd | Oct 4, 2016
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@jimhd

@cowboy1997. How are you doing by now with the TCS treatments?

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What had you hoped would change by having the TMS treatments? I'm sorry it didn't live up to your expectations. I tried Prozac years ago, but I don't remember how it worked for me, or why I stopped taking it. My daughter was helped a lot by it.

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Jim, Volunteer Mentor | @jimhd | Oct 4, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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I am taking Cymbalta for peripheral neuropathy, and Wellbutrin for depression, and the doctor thought my depression would be improved when I added the Cymbalta, but I couldn't feel any change. I wonder if adding Prozac might help. I think I'll give the psychiatrist a call and see what he thinks.

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cowboy1997 | @cowboy1997 | Oct 4, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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I would try if that doesn't help I'd go for TMS. I was on Wellbutrin until 4-6 yrs ago but had to increase it every so often. She put me on Cymbalta 60mg and. It did help depression and took away my severe spinal stenosis pain in my neck within a month! I call it my 2nd miracle drug! Good luck you may need the Prozac it brought me out if that dark hole I felt I was a basket case!

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cowboy1997 | @cowboy1997 | Oct 4, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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ECT would my last resort!

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Minnie1971 | @lesbatts | Oct 4, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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Prozac was a nightmare for me, it just goes to show how one drug helps one person and not another.
As I mentioned before the only drug that helps me is Parnate a MAOI. It takes away the depression most of the time (once in a while I still get a little down but so doesn't the general public.) It also works very well for anxiety. I'll probably be on this med. for the rest of my life unless they come out with a miracle drug and I don't see that happening soon.
Have a good day everyone!

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Minnie1971 | @lesbatts | Oct 4, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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Mine too, but if I got seriously depressed and nothing else worked I wouldn't hesitate to do ECT.

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cowboy1997 | @cowboy1997 | Oct 4, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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Clonzepam 2x day helps my anxiety and sleep!

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susanlorrie | @susanlorrie | Oct 4, 2016

I took Klonapin (aka clonazapam) .5 mg at bedtime for at least 20 years. It helped with anxiety and insomnia. I can no longer take it because I also take pain medication for Thoracic Outlet Syndrome and a Chronic nerve disorder. The government in it's infinite wisdom thinks it knows more about medication than my doctors and the doctors are too scared to go against their advisory even though it is not a law. I stopped taking Ambien at the same time. To top it all off my pain med was also cut down in the same month. I have not been the same since. I had surgery to remove a rib so the nerves were no longer cut off and started to receive an increased blood flow. Unfortunately the nerves have not regenerated and I am left with some bad pain at times. Stopping the pain meds are not an option so I can't work and rely on my husband to drive and cook. For that I am very grateful.
I am sorry to ramble, thank you so much for listening if you still are.

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Barb | @amberpep | Oct 4, 2016

Oh, Lorrie, I do hear you! The gov't. has its fingers into everything ... they think they know better what is good for us than our very own doctors ..... at my age it's absolutely infuriating! Part of my med. routine is Klonapin - 1 mg. AM, 1/2 mg. at night. I can only get 30 at a time, and I cannot pick them up at the Rx until the day I take the last pill! HOLY COW! What do they think I'm going to do with them? I can just see it now ..... a 71 year old lady (admittedly with an attitude) standing on a corner selling Klonapin one at a time to drug addicts for $30 a pill! How absurd!
It's time the doctors took over our care and get it out of the government's hands!
Abby

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