Need help! Depression and anxiety

Posted by pirateking @pirateking, Jul 22, 2016

I don't know where else to go without going to a hospital. I've always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I've been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.

She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don't think it is working.

My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can't concentrate. It feels like I've literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I'm beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I've never had such violent thoughts before. I've had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don't want to do that.

When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I'm having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not

I also have headaches, I'm pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.

This is terrifying. I've never felt like this in my entire life and I don't know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn't around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.

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Minnie1971 | @lesbatts | Sep 30, 2016

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Thanks for everyone for your suggestions I'll look into it. I will have a new doctor at the end of November in the meantime I'm still with my old doctor.
Have a great day!

Barb | @amberpep | Oct 1, 2016

Oh dear heart .... this is awful! You should not have to deal with it. Yes, you most definitely need a different Psychiatrist, but for now, I'd go to the emergency room to get this settled and keep yourself safe. Abby

cowboy1997 | @cowboy1997 | Oct 2, 2016

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Help needed! Do you have a group discussion on this?

Colleen Young, Connect Director | @colleenyoung | Oct 2, 2016

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@cowboy1997 what type discussion are you looking for?

beho | @beho | Oct 2, 2016

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Do not give up...find out what is causing the Stenosis....that is very painful. Do you also have scoliosis?

Jim, Volunteer Mentor | @jimhd | Oct 3, 2016

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How are you doing now? I'm sorry life is so difficult for you right now. It's hard to understand why, when you're in the middle of a crisis. We all can look back at past tough situations and have a level of understanding about the "why" questions, and see the growth we've experienced. That may or may not help us get through what's happening now. I went through a long time of deep depression, and now I'm just trying to maintain. I know the feelings of hopelessness and pointlessness and worthlessness from personal experience, and it's not fun. I, also, ask the question, "How long will this last?" We're in good company. David asked God the same question - one time he asked is found in Psalm 6. We do get weary of illness. I'll be praying for you to have the strength for each day.

Jim, Volunteer Mentor | @jimhd | Oct 3, 2016

@cowboy1997. How are you doing by now with the TCS treatments?

cowboy1997 | @cowboy1997 | Oct 3, 2016

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I'm doing good but I'm not sure if it was the 20 mg of Prozac daily or a combination of TMS! I quit after 5 wks because of 2 other health problems I was having! Told dr depression Was good but the above was too much! I would try medications b4 TMS it's a big commitment to go everyday for 6 wks! I don't work but I'm 72 and it got to be a chore!

cowboy1997 | @cowboy1997 | Oct 3, 2016

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I'm doing good thought I had answered you but it may have been someone else. Don't give up there is meds just have to get the right one! My 1st miracle drug was Prozac back in 1995 when it had a bad name! I'm back on 20 mg Prozac along w Cymbalta which helps w depression and Arthritis! Hope you get better