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Hello 💚,
I was diagnosed with major clinical depression, generalized anxiety now with social anxiety for trying to relate.
Two years covid isolation living alone with a powertripping roof banger giving me at least two anxiety attacks a day and night with a bleeding stomach, stole my social abilities. That is over 1700 anxiety attacks.
Now, for two years I have been sitting in my social group unable to relate --- amazingly, for the first time in life ever. It is like being dead while alive. The pains of trying to relate when my mind cannot put forth the words and actions to make interpersonal communication are killing me. Destroying from the inside out.
I have to isolate against my will to avoid these pains.
Please take off the kidd gloves if you think please you could reply.
Best of health 🧡.
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cindisue,
Thank you.
Unfortunately I have been on anti -anxiety -depression meds for many years. They worked awhile, now my system is too used to them to help enough.
The mental health care for anyone without a loose thousand or two dollars is despicable in Canada. In truth there is no mental health care (psychs) available in my Province to me at all being kept poor with disabilities.
It is what the gov't wants -- less cost.
Mental suffering doesn't matter much here anymore. It just gets M.A.I.D.ed.
Mental is considered a very distant relative to physical health. Mental health sufferers essentially are seen as just a bunch of lazy, deluded hypochondriacs who could "get over it" if they wanted to in Canada.
That sounds mean, but truth is stranger than fiction.
The brain IS part of the body, an organ. Would a freaking-out heart be ignored. Appendix. GI tract. Yet the brain is the person's personal, own fault and concern for being "weak" to have a problem with it.
Man, sorry, can I rant or not?
Best 💚 of health, xpax
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2 Reactionsxpax... wow....I'm so sorry....had no idea Canada's Healthcare was like that...I always wondered about it.... I live in the USA.. and pay for Healthcare thru my employer. That is SO SAD that they have that attitude about mental health help. I'd consider moving to USA... but you probably cannot. It's expensive to move. But if your current medication is no longer working.....your doctor should switch you to something different that would help. You should ask about that. Good Luck to you.