My Drs have failed me so I m
Forced to stop cold turkey. Not
By my choice

@jakedduck1 I’ve been weaning down from 300mg a day. I was taking 150 in the morning and 150 at night. Moved the night dose to early afternoon due to the stimulant in it keeping me awake at night.
My schedule so far:
Morning/afternoon
150/150
150/75
75/75
75/37.5
37.5/37.5
I cut the afternoon dose in half first. Then when I feel I’m ready I cut the morning. Going back and forth. This process has taken me 10 weeks so far.

@dianrib I’m hoping the cymbalta will help with that.

@74unicorn
10 weeks….I am wishing you well. Keep in touch.
@sandineverycrac
Get yourself to another doc or an urgent care. Immediately. Please share some more.

TESTING TESTING TESTING
Ok, now I am being tested big time. My car is missing badly. Very badly. I can't get into one of the 2 shops that take care of these kinds of problems for 3 weeks. I am usually helpless around car problems. I am a nurse. I do bodies well, not machines.
So, no crystal hunting for me. Sad about this. I was so excited. I ended up crying a bunch. I believe in honoring my feelings, not avoiding them. For me…not feeling my feelings lead to depression.
So today, I appropriately end with no smile…hanging in there…Bright Wings with clipped wings at present. I know I will rise again.

Make no mistake here, I will rise again…
Bright Wings

@brightwings You have a great attitude.
JK

@contentandwell
Thank you so much. Maintaining a good attitude is so extremely important in good healing. I sometimes have to work at it, like yesterday and today. I try to model it for others here. Some listen and some Don't.
So now I am listening to an audiobook and grooming my pup. I know I have to stay positive, even in trying times. Its who I am. Ok now, smiling at you all.
Thanks contentandwell. You helped me turn my day around. I am now back in control. Bright Wings

@brightwings Susie, I cannot imagine you NOT being in control, at least not of yourself. You sound very strong.
I agree, attitude is so important. I am acutely conscious of the various things that can be threatening to my health, but I absolutely do not dwell on them. Being conscious of them though makes me more aware of making every day count, and thinking of each day as a gift. I am grateful for each and every day.
JK

How long have you been on Effexor?

@74unicorn

So unicorn is reducing your dose by 50% regularly working well for you? No side effects? Personally I’d never cut a medication that much, at least not this one. I’d probably reduce it by 10% at a time especially if on it a long time. Age, general health, length of time on the medication all play a role. But it does depend on the individual, we’re all different and may respond differently. Continued good luck with your titration.

@sandineverycrac

Were you out of medication and your doctor refused to give you a refill? If not why did you stop cold turkey?

@contentandwell
Oh, thank you Darling…oh how I agree with you. Maintaining a good attitude is everything. We all have our challenges that can take us down. Being aware of the things that can take us out is everything. You are obviously far along in your healing. I applaud you also.
Your statement of you can not imagine me not being in control made me laugh. Yes, that is true now. Thanks for pointing that out. It made me look at just how much in control I am of myself. We don't always see that ourselves.
One of the reasons I have learned to be in control was all my friends HAD to LEAVE ME because of my WHINING after a simple surgery on my foot that went so bad. 5 surgeries later, all my friends were gone. I had chased them all away. I had to learn…NOBODY WANTS TO HEAR WHINING. I did learn that, but it took me years to be in control. I never gave up.
I know there are a few folks here, regular posters. When I see those posts, I choose not to read them. It will just be the same story. I don't have time for that.
So contentandwell, I also applaud you. Good job girl. I can see you are winning too. I predict you will have a great day everyday, as long as you keep going down the same path you are on.
Now these next comments are with that naughty gleem in my old granny eyes and tongue in cheek…FOR A GOOD TIME, TALK TO @jadedduck1. I sent him a pm a couple of days ago. We were able to connect yesterday and we talked on the phone for almost 3 1/2 hours.
Oh, we shared lots of laughs and talked about serious things also. The only reason I chose to end it was my dog had been giving me the evil eye for an hour. He needed to go for a walk!
So Leonard, I look forward to our next conversation.
I am posting this for a reason…boards like this help us heal. However, they will never take the place of real relationships. So trust your gut. Reach out to someone. You will be glad you did. Smiling at you all. I, for one, am going to have a great day. Bright Wings, flying in spite of no car

@brightwings Thanks to you too, Susie. These experiences sure do change a person. I would never want what I went through, but I must admit there are some good things about the changes in me. I am much more assertive than I was.
I am of course conscious of the numerous things I am now at risk of but being conscious of them does not mean I dwell on them. I just try to live each day with gratitude, appreciating many things more than I ever did before. It's sort of nice too, my son and daughter, and my husband, appreciate me more now also since things were getting pretty back prior to transplant. My son has called me a role model.
JK

I shared previously I used to have more than 250 personalities. I based that count by the names written in my 32 journals. Sorry I have to digress…Giggling….I very obviously have not been in control, its been a long road.
I never dreamed I would get to the incredibly good place I am in now.
So why this post. In the past few days as I pondered my life, I realized I HAVE ARRIVED AT MY TARGETED IMAGE OF WHO I WANTED TO BE.
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Who are You going to be when you are finished healing?
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When my personalies were starting to emerge in therapy, it was so scary. Who would I be at the end? Would I be someone I didn't want to be, didn't like?
It all felt so hopeless which made me feel more helpless.
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My therapists helped me develop a picture of who I wanted myself to be when I was done.
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We worked on a list of qualifications the new me should have. We also worked on a list of qualities I didn't want. Then I started developing little videos in my head and watched the new, improved, healed me handle different situations.
I watched other people to see how they handled situations. If I liked some aspect of that person, I added that quality to my list. Same with unbecoming aspects, they went on my didn't want list.
Today, I am 14 weeks Effexor free. My thinking is getting better, things are clearer.
I am giving myself a huge pat on the back.
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I have arrived. I AM the Woman I wanted to be with the qualities I wanted. Oh, I still have things to work on…I will die with things to work on because that is who I am.
I am happy I have arrived. I love myself.
Do you?
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What is the image of who you want to be?