The waning doctor? Not understanding how I feel.
I have an epileptologist who has always worked with me in my treatment. She has not been controlling, However that seems to be changing. She knows I cannot afford to have the battery in my VNS to be replaced. She knows that I do not want it to be replaced. She is adamant that it is an added form of medication so I need it. It is an added form of medication that does any good for me? I have had it for nearly 21 years and there is no proof that it has ever helped my seizures. Last week she had her nurse call me to make an appointment for me to have the battery checked. I tell her I must pay nearly $1,000 in copays with my insurance to have this replaced. Have you seen a social worker? When was your last seizure? 2-3 months ago I told her. The secretary calls to make the appointment and she can sense that I would rather let the battery die and dies not make an appointment. The nurse calls me later I do not call her back.
This is all to stressful for me. It is unneeded stress! Luckily so far my seizures have handled it. But for how long? I am beginning to feel that the doctor does not understand or respect the way I feel. I am beginning to feel I need a change. I do not want to have to change doctors. I do not want any other med added. I only want my Zonisamide increased. I have noticed a great change in my seizures. They have become very infrequent.
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How often do we see our doctor for the first time and like them then but thereafter we find that is not for me. Vice versa occurs. I went to my epileptologist for the first time and couldn't stand her. She changed thereafter and became my favorite doctor because of how he has always worked with me in my plan of treatment. But that seems to be changing and so is she. She is so adamant that the VNS is an added form of medication and that it is a good one. But not all medications work for everyone. There is no proof that the VNS has never worked for me in the 21 years I have had it. She still insists the battery be replaced. The other week the nurse called that the doctor wanted me to go in to have the battery checked. I told her I must pay nearly $1,000 in copays to have the battery replaced. Have you seen a social worker? When was your lasts seizure? 2-3 months. Okay I'll tell the doctor this and have the assistant call and schedule an appointment. The secretary could somehow sense that I wanted to let the battery die and so she made no appointment. The nurse called the next day. I have never returned the call. This is too much unneeded stress. Fortunately my seizures have handled it. But for how long? I am most uncomfortable with using the VNS. She has added Zonisamide and it has miraculously decreased my seizures Because my MD has wanted me to be comfortable with my treatment if I tell her this she will back off. If not somehow I will have to tell her some sort of change is needed. I do not want to change doctors. My social worker will not get involved in this. She isn't knowledgeable about it either. You are the ones that have the knowledge and I respect your comments.
@isittll
I thought this issue had been put to bed awhile back.
As you know it's your decision wether or not to replace the battery, not the doctors. Don't allow them to persuade you to do something your against. You have given the VNS 21 years to prove it's effectiveness which it hasn't done. If I were in your position I'd make it crystal clear to the doctor that the battery won't be replaced, period, end of story.
Have you considered removing the leads and coils or just letting the battery die?
Take care,
Jake
Hi @isittll!
I very much agree with what @jakedduck1 has said. I have also to feel confident about the doctor's recommendation, that it is a good solution for me. Just to give you an example. In 2019, my current doctor at that time has introduced Vimpat, which had terrible side effects and affected very much my life quality. He wanted me to stay on Vimpat and was against replacing it. After 6 months, after feeling worse and worse and not controlling all my seizures, I went to see another doctor so as to have a second opinion. I changed doctors and medication. Very happy to have done it!
In my opinion, the relationship doctor-patient should be a partnership. If you do not feel that, I believe it is worth looking for another doctor.
Take good care of yourself.
Santosha
Hello @lsittll,
I am glad to hear that your seizures are less frequent than they used to be, that is good news. I can also hear the frustration in your words. I can admire the fact that you feel the need to advocate for yourself and also the need to get help in a way that you think might be best. Right now, you feel that increasing the dose of your current med will help you. Is that right? Have you expressed that to your doctor as an alternative to her plan?
I can also understand your reluctance to make changes, both in the doctor you see as well as your current treatment plan. It is hard to make changes and changes are very stressful for all of us. I would encourage you, however, to try talking with a social worker, as suggested by your doctor's office. They have ways of helping people with financial issues related to treatment as well as helping with ways to communicate with your doctor. A social worker might be very helpful to you at this point in your treatment in talking with your doctor.
Would you consider this?
Hello @hopeful33250
Increasing the current dose of my Zolpidem would be the perfect thing to do and that is what I want to do. I know that this is what will no help. No VNS! Unfortunately, I missed my last appointment with my doctor. Perhaps if I had returned the nurses call and stated that I wanted an extra Zonisamide to help control any added seizures that could result from the added stress of this. I did have an aura one night that was a "close call" shortly after all this started with the doctor. Seizures occur right after stressful things start so the incident with the doctor was the cause.
I have a social worker whom I see weekly for counseling. She will not get involved in the matter. She says she is not the person to talk to about this. She tells me my psychiatric nurse practitioner, whom she personally known, is the one I should talk to about this. I have made an appointment to speak to about the stress of this. The only thing perhaps she could do is talk to my doctor. I will not get a social worker for financial reasons related to the cost of the VNS! I REFUSE to have the battery in the VNS replaced. A medicine never controlling seizures is proof it does not work for me. Seeing a social worker is additional unneeded stress just as this whole thing is unneeded stress for me.
Hello @jakedduck1
I wish this issue was resolved. The doctor recommended it be replaced before at her hospital. It's an out of network hospital with Cigna so I paid 100%. She still insists it be replaced at another hospital that I told her is in the network. Research has shown I must pay nearly $1,000 in copays to have it done there. The battery shall die and is probably dead if it was at a less than 10% level 8 months ago. She told me a friend has pacemakers with dead batteries inside her yet she is still alive so I will be okay. You said earlier that you wondered what her reasoning is that the VNS is an added medicine. My seizures are better with it at a low level. Yet they were more frequent at a higher level. The only difference is I wasn't on Zonisamide. I highly question her reasoning. My assertiveness is not always so good. The nurse practitioner told me today that my social worker should be able to help me with the assertiveness skills I should use with the doctor.
Hello @santosha!
I also feel the doctor patient relationship should be a partnership. The doctor has a way of being controlling in replacing the battery. She just says I think the battery should replaced I'll refer you to Dr. X rather than I think the battery should be replaced I'll refer you to X okay? I have considered another doctor but I do not like changing doctors. I have to have someone learn my whole history which is very complex and I don't want them to add any different medications.
@lsittll
JUST SAY NO
Jake
Hello@jakedduck1
I see you liked my comment. I have a pretty good memory about all you said. I'm pretty sure I do.
Take care,
Laurie
@Isittll
Wish I had your memory.
“No” is the only word you have to say, easy fast & definite. If she argues say my decision is final and this discussion is over. Or something like that. She is stressing you out which is doing more harm than good.
Jake