Suicide: Finding it hard to lose someone by suicide

Suicides are rough on the families! I had a cousin shoot himself in the head( we were close but he was going thru a divorce and couldn’t help his son while his wife was having an affair ) then a few years later his son killed himself! My sister-in-law stuck a shotgun in her mouth and survived but had mental problems, a cousin was in a police chase and chose hitting a semi head on and while waiting for the final call he passed away another cousin died in his sleep. A high school friends sister overdosed and a few years later his brother killed him self. I worked on a farm with an older gentleman who hung himself on Halloween . And there has been about 3 or 4 more . These have all been at least 10 years ago , being around the first cousin a lot has been the hardest to understand. People its not worth it if somethings wrong talk to someone your not only ending your pain your creating pain for others.

This is dreadful to go through. I lost my brother 3 years ago and I am still stuck in denial. He blew up his home, destroying houses around him and rendering 8 people homeless. No one else was hurt. Such pain and loss for all involved.