Pain and personality change

Some of my fellow TKR brothers and sisters in this forum may relate to this. With the many difficulties TKR recipients express I’ve read very little about depression or personality changes. Think back when you first reviewed your bone-on-bone condition with your Orthopedist and maybe googled all the wonderful stories of TKR recipients on ski sloops, you may have been filled with optimism looking forward to when your knee(s) will be normal again. If you fall into the camp of the unsuccessful TKR recipients, there will come a time when realization sets in that you can no longer do the things you used to do, and this can be life changing when there’s no improvement.
Depression isn’t one of my traits, but I have noticed subtle behavior changes. Before my TKR I’d always be willing to go somewhere, anywhere, but now I find myself making excuses when I’m asked to go somewhere and subconsciously ask myself, how far would I have to walk , are there stairs, etc. My first trip with family to our local mall was a painful experience, a drag on my family, and an awakening that things are not right. Friends and family distance themselves and stop asking me to travel with them because they know I’ll probably say no, or I’m not listening to them since my mind is on my knee pain or my Trip to the HSS in NY. Unknowingly, I’ve become another person.