Not OK — and that's OK
I'm not OK today. Yesterday I attended my neighbour's memorial service (diagnosed 1½ years after me, also stage 4, but a different cancer). Even though I'm in full remission according to my care team, I feel a sense of doom, and I'm imagining every little ache or pain as a new metastasis (and I get lots of random aches and pains thanks to the nerve damage).
But I'm not the same person I was when I was first diagnosed 3 years ago. I've been through this before, and now I trust that I *will* feel better soon. I don't need to force it, and I don't need to make things worse by worrying about being worried. Cancer has taught me emotional strength (tough teacher!), and I know that it's OK not to be OK for a few days.
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Best wishes and good luck with the operation. ♥️💪
The challenge with a rare cancer is that no one knows about it; the challenge with a common one like prostate or breast cancer is that everyone *thinks* they know about it (but most of what they know is wrong).
I'm so sorry that you also have to deal with the stigma and victim blaming around lung cancer.
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Took many years of struggling, beginning to accept not OK as OK. Everything wants to be accepted as it is, once accepted it can be ok…
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