I am a 66 yr old female that has been diagnosed with MS/Major Depression/PTSD. In the early 2000s I was diagnosed with Depression and was placed on Ativan. After moving to a new location and getting a new psychiatrist, he started to wean me off of the Ativan. He didn’t do it right and I went into a very bad withdrawal. I dropped that psychiatrist (had him fired) and ended up with my current female psychiatrist. Since then I have had two hospitalizations and have multiple drugs prescribed and changed to where I am no longer on any anti-depressants. I have suffered multiple serious side effects from taking and going off of these drugs. Sleeping is very difficult for me and I am taking Clonzepam 1mg along with 300mg of Trazadone for sleep. I am very restless sleeping and don’t feel like I slept well when I wake up. I haven’t felt like myself for years now and my psychiatrist says I won’t feel like I did when I was on Ativan. When I was on that for several years and had energy and the will to live life to the fullest. Now I think of dying every day (won’t do that as I am afraid of dying) and just don’t have the desire to do anything. I used to have pride in the way I looked and dressed and now I don’t care. The drugs I was on made me gain weight so my clothes don’t fit right and I haven’t had the desire to go shopping. My husband is now my caretaker in some respects as I have no desire to do anything. I have to force myself to get up from my chair everyday to just do the smallest of tasks. My feeling is that there isn’t any medication or therapy that has helped me and I am about at the end of my rope. There isn’t any true information that my Multiple Sclerosis is contributing to what is going on with me at least that is what my neurologist ang psychiatrist say. They just don’t know. I have what they call Benign MS so I am not wheelchair bound. Is there any hope for me? I need help but I don’t know what to do. Can anyone out there help me?