Is this recovery?

Posted by yanks950 @yanks950, 2 days ago

I have been on 90mg duloxetine for years and feeling fine. Within the last month and a half my anxiety and depression came rushing back. It has been an extremely long and hellish road. I had to take Ativan to get through the days and would cry every night terrified I would never feel better.

After speaking with my psych he increased my meds to 120mg and started me on 15mg of Buspar 2x/day.

I am 36 and in back in school to become an x-ray tech. Today was one of the days we had to be in the hospital all day (8-4). I think I felt a little bit better mentally. I didn’t have to take an Ativan and was able to eat a little something after days of not eating. But all day my back and chest/stomach were tight.

As the day got longer i couldn’t stop think what if this was just a one off. Will I feel worse tomorrow? Will my life ever get back to where it was? Just scared of everything even though today wasn’t as bad.

Is this normal after coming out of a prolonged anxiety/depression issue? Even as I’m writing this I feel nervous and scared.

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pml | @pml | 2 days ago

I'm so sorry that you are going through this and having such strong anxiety and emotions! How awful for you. Sometimes our bodies change as we get older and what used to work just fine no longer does. Yet, the new medications don't seem to work as good as the old one. You might want to look up the side effects of any medications you are currently taking and see if any of them could be causing your situation. Don't stop any medications until you talk to your doctor. That could cause even more problems.

The other thing I would suggest that you do is pray. Tell God all that you have told us. He is there for you. Just talk to him like he's your best friend and he is! After all, he made you and he can fix you. If you haven't prayed before, now is a good time to start. My husband died in July. All of a sudden I was alone and scared! I turned to God and told him everything I was afraid of. Will I have enough money to live on? I'm 78 and no one would hire me at that age! I was afraid of driving the car. I was lonely. I put it all in God's hands and had faith that he would answer my prayers. He did answer them but not all at once. It took a while. Now, all these months later after my husband died, my finances are fine. I'm not wealthy but I can pay the bills and eat. I'm not afraid to drive the car anymore. In fact, I enjoy it! Many of my neighbors came forward and visited and offered to help me in anyway that they could and I made some new friends also. I'm no longer lonely.

I wish you the best and will say a prayer for you.
PML

gently | @gently | 1 day ago

yanks950, Sounds like recovery to me. It is normal to fear the return of this or any other ailment. If you are accustomed to 8-4 on your feet, your muscles should feel tight. Best wishes and cheers.