How does one learn to function with multiple mental health problems?

Posted by Lost-N-Confused @lostnconfused, Sep 23 2:44am

I’ve suffered from mental health problems since a teenager. Now 47 I have lost all passion, desire and hunger for anything but sleep! I only take in small snacks because I don’t want blood sugar to drop. Live alone, no husband, no children, no pets, no plants nor family or friends whom seem to care about me. My mother is passed on. She was so much to me and I never knew how much until the day I was made to decide to remove her from life support. I was so angry at her for leaving me alone in this harsh and cold world. Now I feel I’m lower than I’ve been. I don’t want to die but I don’t know how to live either. Day after day I’m hit with some problem or downfall yet have nobody to give me a hand. I’m sleeping to avoid and not feel the pain. I sleep probably 20th a day and am still tired when I wake.
Please help me someone… anyone!

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BrainOnFire72 | @nonna23 | Oct 24 8:31am

@lostnconfused - I have had the same issue my entire life as well. Let me tell you, it's been a long and tumultuous 53 years. I pray almost every single night not to wake up the next morning, and curse the world when I do. I ask God to please take me from my daily, useless life. I'm not going to harm myself (unless I totally lose my S*it), but I sure wish I could sleep my life away if I have to be on this earth. I do not go out alone... I must have groceries delivered, as I cannot go into big-box stores because I feel like everyone is judging me or looking at me with disgust, the same as I see myself. It's gotten a LOT worse as I've gotten older. Now I'm just to the point where I only go to work (because I have to make sure my bills stay paid) and to family members' homes for brief times. I'm totally checked out, even with my medications. They are what I need, but if I take anything strong, I won't be able to work, and I MUST work. I wish on all that is good and holy that I could feel happy, truly happy, and not want to sleep my life away. I don't feel the constant shame and self-doubt when I'm sleeping. My adult children are doing amazing, and really don't need Mom anymore. My grandchildren are happy and living great lives, so... Can I get my final goodnight?

Randy Shields | @randallshields56 | Oct 24 1:55pm

In reply to @lostnconfused "@earline14 Can anyone else see this message…." + (show)

@lostnconfused yes and i am the same believe in god , Jesus if you prefer but he is the light, put your prayers in his hands, he's keeping you around because someone else needs your help too. i talk to him daily and i am running out of family too. i will include you inn my prayers too have a blessed day.

Colleen Young, Connect Director | @colleenyoung | Oct 24 6:25pm

In reply to @nonna23 "@lostnconfused - I have had the same issue my entire life as well. Let me tell..." + (show)

@nonna23, it sounds like you have a real inner turmoil roiling inside your world. You know you have responsibilities (adult children, grand children, work, bills to be paid) and you're getting those things done. But at the same time you want to sleep, just shut out the world. You feel judged, shame, self-doubt and with little hope of happiness.

I want to applaud you for all that you do. I know you don't want that, but you should be applauded. Daily responsibilities sound like a real heavy lift that requires super-human effort and YOU. ARE. DOING. IT.

I think you deserve to be loved - by you. May I ask what prevents you from loving you? From respecting you?

tisme | @tisme | Oct 25 4:14am

In reply to @nonna23 "@lostnconfused - I have had the same issue my entire life as well. Let me tell..." + (show)

@nonna23 your lucky your adult children are independent , mine will never be.

slarson14 | @slarson14 | Oct 25 12:12pm

In reply to @randallshields56 "Yes can see your message it's a shame the era we live in right now, only..." + (show)

@randallshields56

I gave up on people long ago.

God is my only friend and am happy with Him, He sends me blessings by the boat load.

yram | @yram | Oct 25 6:25pm

Lost and confused
I understand. Get some help from a psychiatrist. Medication might help. It's worth a try. Blessings
Marlie

Randy Shields | @randallshields56 | 5 days ago

In reply to @slarson14 "@randallshields56 I gave up on people long ago. God is my only friend and am happy..." + (show)

@slarson14 that's so cool, i know he messages me in my sleep and dreams, that's all i need but still need family for things i can help them with too. Right now i am a train wreck.

Randy Shields | @randallshields56 | 5 days ago

In reply to @yram "Lost and confused I understand. Get some help from a psychiatrist. Medication might help. It's worth..." + (show)

@yram sometimes meds can help some don't , i just know that i wish i wasn't on so many off them right now. i quit taking them i die, been there and back, no picnic. but some meds help. just have to know how long it takes to get of of them that is the trick.