Hormonal issues/ MTHFR / high testosterone
Hi, I’m an 18 year old girl with MTHFR who is currently in a bit of a pickle. Well, a big pickle. Here’s some background
I am 5’1 and weigh 92 pounds, which is the heaviest i’ve ever been in my life. I can’t gain weight, mostly due to my mthfr. My family is full of women with big boobs, tiny waists, and big hips/butts, i cannot find a single girl like myself on either side of my family tree, not one. I always thought this was super weird, and I always thought it was really weird that I had the skeletal structure I did. My family, both sides, all have very pear shaped bodies. yet, I am a triangle, Giant shoulders and narrow tall hips that dont flare out in the slightest. I appear very masculine and also have a lot of hair growth everywhere. I get on birth control pills and stay on them for 3 years, Finally develop some sort of breasts, but after being diagnosed with MTHFR, I am taken off my birth control pills.
Flash forward to this year and I find out that I have EXTREMELY HIGH testosterone. Like, an 18 year old male has less testosterone in their body than I do. My doctor explains to me that this is probably why I developed a literal male skeleton, and all my masculine features, and that my breasts were only really a result of my birth control pills. Well, having been off them for almost a year now ive lost 3 inches of breast tissue, and many mental/physical issues have returned. They dont want to put me back on birth control pills because of my MTHFR, but I worry that Its unhealthy for my breasts/uterus/ovaries to have this much testosterone, not to mention the affects it has on my appearance is driving me to suicidal level bad mental health. Ive always struggled with body issues and this is to the point where I’ve relapsed in self harming, and constantly cry myself to sleep. Also, In regards to the breast issue I also cant get breast implants due to my MTHFR, incase anyone was gonna suggest that.
For anyone curious, I dont have testi- tissue, nore do i have any tumors,chromasomal abnormalities, Or PCOS. they have yet to identify a reason for my weird hormones.
Am I just destined to suffer? Do yall know something I dont? have you been through something similar??? I need help. Im going insane. Doctors have yet to be able to help me. Im going insane. I need some sort of advice.