For the passed many years, I have been totally wiped out ….. even after a good night’s sleep. I was in MD this week, helping a girlfriend who is recovering from eye surgery, and when I got home, I felt like I could collapse ….. so very tired. This morning I ate breakfast, sat in my chair to watch a bit of TV, and went out like a light. I know a lot of these meds. can do that, but I try to counteract it with a fistful of vitamins. Some days I don’t even feel like dressing, so I just stay in my nightclothes all day.
Re. suicide, which I read someone was talking about here ….. I’ve felt that many times – never told a soul. I had a plan so that if things got too bad, I knew what I would do. But, since my kids don’t want to hear anything about mental health, I no longer even try. Makes me feel very alone. I’ve told my therapist about this, but when he asks if I have a plan, I say “no.” (lie)
I don’t really feel there is anyone I can talk to down here who won’t just turn me off, or give me some flip answer like “oh, you’ll be fine, Mom.” They have no idea and don’t seem to want to know.
My therapist and Psychiatrist are both in MD and I go up every 2 weeks to see my therapist and my Psychiatrist about every 6 weeks. I’ve “invited” my kids to come along, sit in on one of my sessions with my therapist so perhaps he could get through to them what I deal with daily, but none of them are willing to do that. It seems they just don’t want to know.