I am so tired of being sick and tired. For years now my family and I have watched and felt me deteriorate. I am now a huge bubble of what I used to be. Swollen all over, fat up top, buffalo hump, supra-ventricular fat pads, horible stretch marks all over. Red face which is now forming little vericose veins. I haven't been able to wear my wedding ring for 3 year. My shoe size has gone from 7 1/2 narrow to 8 wide. I hardle ever eat. I should not be fat. I have crushing fatigue ALL the TIME!!! I have a sleep disorder, multiple arousals during the night so I get no deep sleep. I have hypnogogic hallucinations and sleep paralysis, not to mention dreaming bad dreams ALL night EVERY night. I have tachycardia. RHR 90-110 all the time. I went to an ENT today for swollen glands and my BP was 130/90. I usually have a dastolic around 70.All I want to do is sleep. I am weak and have no energy. I cna't even get my house cleaned anymore. I am missing out on my kids lives. I have been thrown from doctor to doctor. I have been diagnosed with SR-MDD and anxiety. I am on meds (no steroids). I have migrains all the time about 4-5 a week. I was told today by the ENT that he sees nothing alarming with my swollen glands, he said that I have a lump of myositis? at the base of my skull (inflammation of muscle fibers). Check back in 2 months. My PCP has ordered a complete metabolic panel, checking for mono, thyroid, and cortisol levels. I have all of this in the past. All inconclusive. But over the past year my body shape has changed DRAMATICALLY! And my energy level is CRAP. And I feel sick ALL THE TIME!! I have fever spikes throughout the dday. I am normal temp then BAM 101! Then back down. I am so freakin frustrated and sick of being told "nothing is wrong with you!" They say diet and exercise. Well I have done that, Weight Watchers, Atkin's, Cabbage Soup Diet, Jenny Craig. Jogging, recently P90X with diet. I will lose about 6-8 pounds and it comes right back. I used to have a waist with more fat distributed in my hips and butt. This past year my thighs and but have shrunk and I have become a fat blob up top. I am humiliated. This change occured while I was jogging 2 miles a day and drinking a ton of water. I don't know what to do. I feel like I am rapidly falling apart. I am afraid if someone doesn't take me seriously and figure out what is going on I will be dead soon. I want to LIVE AGAIN! I WANT TO WATCH MY GIRLS GROW UP! I WANT TO LIVE A LONG HEALTHY LIFE WITH MY HUSBAND. I NEEEEEEED HELP!!!! SOMEBODY PLEEEAAASE HELP ME!!!!! PLEASE!