Cumulative Grief

Hola Friends! I'm SO thrilled to discover that this group exists! 🙂 I'm dealing with a lot of cumulative grief over the last 7 years from a variety of tragic deaths / various situations, but especially this last week. I am bottom of the list for knowing how to grieve and welcome any support, encouragement or expertise y'all might have. Last week, I found out back-to-back in the span of 20 minutes that 5 of my friends had died. The first one was my best friend, whose funeral I attended today. Grief swept over me like a tidal wave and I convulsively cried as the denial / shock finally wore off (or down). It was ugly, but needed. The other 4 people were an entire family I knew from school - it was a triple murder-suicide. I literally don't know how to process this. It actually dredged up unresolved feelings from my own life experiences, which made it hurt even worse. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to navigate this, especially with upcoming holidays, etc? Definitely a tough time. Many thanks.