Anxiety and Depression: I just want to feel normal again.

Posted by tmf0 @tmf0, Nov 24, 2018

For the last 10 weeks my anxiety and depression have been at a level that I’ve never experienced. My life has completely changed in such a short period of time. I am constantly nauseated, I hardly get out of bed, I have no desire to see or speak to anyone, my mind is continuously spinning with irrational thoughts, I even canceled Thanksgiving and I can go on & on. I just dont know how anyone can live like this. I’m not living but merely existing. It’s a battle every minute of every day. I just want to feel normal again.

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Honestly I’m not feeling so good today. I’m on the lowest dose of Zoloft and lowest dose of seroquel at night. I’m thinking that taking this round of antibiotics is affecting the effectiveness of the medicine. I hope. Today was an orientation to my new job. So much change in my life and, while it should be fun, I’m mostly faking it. I truthfully still think I’m mourning the passing of my dad (almost 18 months) and my mom’s struggles with dementia. It’s like I lost them both. And my home and job and anything familiar. I did a stupid thing, moving, during an emotional time. But I just wanted my daughter to go to a good school - and, more than likely, was acting in a “manic” way. I don’t like being called “bipolar” but looking back, perhaps it explains a lot. And I’ve never been reckless, but I did take risks - but calculated. This time, however, it impacted my family and it tears me up. But they are happy :). It’s just me struggling.

I had a cry today at one point in my orientation :). Quietly. But I hadn’t done that for weeks. I’m tempted to stop the antibiotics, but, since I hate taking meds anyway, when I do take them I like to follow directions. Four more days.

Thank you for asking. This is the pits. But I am grateful.

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@secretwhitepop It is good to read that you are realizing your antibiotics may be interacting with your regular meds. With four more days to go, you can do this! On top of that, with all the changes, it is easy to have fluctuating days. Being able to see the larger picture, seeing how these dramatic things [move, death of one parent and another one ill, etc.] could have affected you, please be proud you can see that. Be gentle on yourself. Have you spoken with your dr to get his/her suggestions during this time? Please know we care. We look forward to hearing from you in a few more days when orientation feels less daunting, and the antibiotics leave your system.


Are Zoloft and seraquil usually prescribed together? My moms on day 5 of 150 mg Zoloft and beyond miserable. Anxiety is through the roof. Internal tremors. She takes 15 mg remeron at night for sleep. She doesn’t want to add on more meds because then she won’t know which ones working or causing issues.


Because I had those same anxiety issues with Lexapro, my doc put me on Seroquel for one week before beginning Zoloft and it helped tremendously. Apparently Seroquel is a mood stabilizer. It seemed to be working well until I got an inner ear infection and started taking antibiotics. My anxiety and depression were just starting to abate and I am slammed again. I’m hoping it subsided after Thursday when my antibiotics are done. Your mom should definitely call or see the doctor. She should not be suffering. It’s awful.


Understood. We have an appt in 6 days. He never agrees to make med changes by phone. Dosage changes he’ll do. But before med changes, he wants to see her. Praying the Ativan helps until the next appointment. Praying you feel better soon too


It’s also frustrating that when I spoke to drs nurse, she said moms reaction to the higher Zoloft dose is NOT normal. I wanted to say “but I’m reading abt so many ppl having the same issues in online forums” but i figured I’d save that for the appointment. Thinking moms reaction was “normal” was sort of making me feel better. Now I’m not so sure.


My doctor said that for folks who have anxiety and/or are bipolar (manic depressive) that Zoloft alone may cause increased anxiety at first as well as when dosage is increased. I’m sorry you didn’t get that response, but I double checked on internet, too. I was dismayed to learn that I may be bipolar. I’m almost 52 and, again, was doing pretty well on Effexor. Then, when I weened off, I only lasted 6 months on nothing... and now I’m on two meds! Ha! (And now I’m crying at the drop of a hat and I’m hoping it’s because of being on antibiotics!)

If it’s not too difficult, perhaps seek a second opinion. In these days of complicated insurance and in some cases NO insurance, I understand what a pain this all is. But it’s your life (and your moms). I also completely understand the empathy you must feel for your mom. My heart breaks to hear my mom cry about how unhappy she is in her new living situation. And between my brothers and I, all of us are going through tremendous transition and just don’t have enough stored “happiness” to help each other 🙁

This is why I love this forum.


We’re going to go to the appointment on Monday and see what happens. I find that trying to get drs attention over the phone in between patients isn’t the best. Hes much more attentive in person. We will certainly look into a second opinion if necessary. This doctor has been very patient and open to trying new things so we’ll see how the visit goes. Thank you so much for your response. You’ve been very helpful

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