Living with inoperable pancreatic cancer

Thank you for your kind words. My mom died of gallbadder cancer, nine years ago, so I saw what she went through. She was diagnosed in early March and by the end of June she passed away. I look at this situation, it is what it is. I could go around screaming & cussing, being angry all the time or be down in the dumps, crying all the time. I don't think that would be good for me, probably raise my blood pressure or worse. I'm just doing the best I can & there are days that I'm down & not having a good day. Yes, I did have genetic testing of my tumor. I think it came back with ATM something. I had another genetic test done recently to see if any of my cancer cells had mutated in a cancer that has targeted treatments, I have the KRASG12 mutation but there is only trial therapy. I also think the ATM didn't have anything targeted too. Just had my chemo of gemzar & abraxane, feeling a little tired but otherwise okay. I also have many people telling me they are praying for me. This really humbles me when I'm told this and I wonder if I'm worthy of all these prayers of healing. Sometimes I over think things. Take care.

Thank you for your kind words. My mom died of gallbadder cancer, nine years ago, so I saw what she went through. She was diagnosed in early March and by the end of June she passed away. I look at this situation, it is what it is. I could go around screaming & cussing, being angry all the time or be down in the dumps, crying all the time. I don't think that would be good for me, probably raise my blood pressure or worse. I'm just doing the best I can & there are days that I'm down & not having a good day. Yes, I did have genetic testing of my tumor. I think it came back with ATM something. I had another genetic test done recently to see if any of my cancer cells had mutated in a cancer that has targeted treatments, I have the KRASG12 mutation but there is only trial therapy. I also think the ATM didn't have anything targeted too. Just had my chemo of gemzar & abraxane, feeling a little tired but otherwise okay. I also have many people telling me they are praying for me. This really humbles me when I'm told this and I wonder if I'm worthy of all these prayers of healing. Sometimes I over think things. Take care.

I appreciate the need to be thankful for excellent medical car - however, many folks seem more interested in thanking a god, than the incredible medical professionals.

Please reconsider where you place your thanks. I believe you should be profusely thanking these people.

I was initially diagnosed September 2021 and began chemo in November 2021. In October 2022 my PET showed no active cancer. My Ca19-9 had continued to drop throughout treatment. Until January 2023 my treatments were every 2 weeks, then to 3 weeks. Last month they stretched to every 4 weeks. PET scans have continued to show no activity snd Ca19-9 is 14. The lesions that were on my liver are gone and my lungs do not have any pinpoint activity. I still have neuropathy from the 10 rounds of oxaliplatin. I continue on leucovorin, campostar, and 5 fu. I feel well, I stopped dwelling on the fact that I was devastated by a cancer diagnosis after about 10 weeks and now it is a fact just like asthma and diabetes. I pray for those that provide me care and have so many that have prayed for my and the success of my treatment. The prayers have given me strength to continue the treatment, removed stress and worry, given me a peace, and enhanced the success of my medical treatment. While many do not believe in the power of God, I do. I have had those of different faiths and religions pray for me and I have learned to pray for others. I believe that healing our spirit is a big part of being able to live with cancer.

I know about the feelings of not being worthy.
That's another topic I've been delving into online, since I have come to recognize what a potent influence those early impressions continue to exert throughout our lives.
I may be repeating myself, but when the idea occurred to me that even *I* am worthy of love, how shocking that idea seemed. And it's not as if I didn't already believe on an intellectual level that all of us embodied spirits are worthy of a simple, direct, uncomplicated love (dare I call it divine?).

I was initially diagnosed September 2021 and began chemo in November 2021. In October 2022 my PET showed no active cancer. My Ca19-9 had continued to drop throughout treatment. Until January 2023 my treatments were every 2 weeks, then to 3 weeks. Last month they stretched to every 4 weeks. PET scans have continued to show no activity snd Ca19-9 is 14. The lesions that were on my liver are gone and my lungs do not have any pinpoint activity. I still have neuropathy from the 10 rounds of oxaliplatin. I continue on leucovorin, campostar, and 5 fu. I feel well, I stopped dwelling on the fact that I was devastated by a cancer diagnosis after about 10 weeks and now it is a fact just like asthma and diabetes. I pray for those that provide me care and have so many that have prayed for my and the success of my treatment. The prayers have given me strength to continue the treatment, removed stress and worry, given me a peace, and enhanced the success of my medical treatment. While many do not believe in the power of God, I do. I have had those of different faiths and religions pray for me and I have learned to pray for others. I believe that healing our spirit is a big part of being able to live with cancer.

I was initially diagnosed September 2021 and began chemo in November 2021. In October 2022 my PET showed no active cancer. My Ca19-9 had continued to drop throughout treatment. Until January 2023 my treatments were every 2 weeks, then to 3 weeks. Last month they stretched to every 4 weeks. PET scans have continued to show no activity snd Ca19-9 is 14. The lesions that were on my liver are gone and my lungs do not have any pinpoint activity. I still have neuropathy from the 10 rounds of oxaliplatin. I continue on leucovorin, campostar, and 5 fu. I feel well, I stopped dwelling on the fact that I was devastated by a cancer diagnosis after about 10 weeks and now it is a fact just like asthma and diabetes. I pray for those that provide me care and have so many that have prayed for my and the success of my treatment. The prayers have given me strength to continue the treatment, removed stress and worry, given me a peace, and enhanced the success of my medical treatment. While many do not believe in the power of God, I do. I have had those of different faiths and religions pray for me and I have learned to pray for others. I believe that healing our spirit is a big part of being able to live with cancer.