in reply to @loribmt Thank you. I think you are exactly right in that my neighbor has actually helped me more than she may have intended to hurt me. I spoke to the apartment manager yesterday and explained I was not operating a wood shop on my patio, that I was doing these projects in an effort to cope. The apartment manager thinks she is a nutcase. Good. I am not alone. However, I have to admit that yesterday I was outside exercising my first amendment rights, which I often do if I am angry about something. I will spare the details, but did say loud enough for my neighbor to hear, "this is an apartment complex, and if you don't like the noise then you need to go back to working in the office." Furthermore, I also made two more signs in French, "tu ne peux avoir mon povoir" and "tu n'as aucun pouvoir." I realize this may all sound so juvenile, but I am still a bit bruised by her behavior because I trusted her and really thought she was my friend. How wrong. I need to listen more to those voices in my brain that say, "wait." The red flags were there, but I ignored them.
I am a wreck this morning because I am getting ready to see the hematologist and also the PA in my PCP's office. On Monday I landed in the ER because a wound on my leg that occurred while gardening 2 weeks ago became infected, and my doctor friend insisted I go to the ER. I should have had stitches, but since I could not call my "friend" I patched myself up with bandages and the results were official. I feel better today, having been on antibiotics. Live and learn. Oh well, just another $95 down the drain.
Thank you for your continued support. I have been doing some amazing art to help me through this period of my life, now working on a water color of my digestive system. Whatever works, right?