I am so lonely and cry a lot. My spouse of 47 years has found on line porn as his outlet. He has nothing to do with me anymore. I am so broken.

for one thing I have constant ringing in my ears & it is driving me crazy. I have lived in this neighborhood for 10 years and do not know or see or talk to my neighbors except one. She welcomed me & was divorced and still kept in touch with her husband and they have now been back together for about 2 yrs. She never stops to see me and stay and talk. She comes in at least once every few months and only stays no more than 5 minutes. I am lonely, depressed, scared, nervous and crying and shaking. I live in a house my son bought for me about 10 or more years ago. I have no friends close by, sold my care a few years ago cause I was afraid to drive anymore, spend most of my time here alone in this big house. I am shaky and scared. The ringing in my ears drives me nuts. I wish I could sleep forever cause I can sleep and not hear ringing. I cry and pace all day. No one comes to see me and my daughter lives about 30 min. away from me - is a nurse and retired but does work helping older people in their home 3 days a week, has a son here and he has 2 kids & a camper and spends time with his mother who does not live far from them. She takes me to doctors and is a tough nurse and really a sweet girl but she does not understand me and my tribulations etc. The constant ringing in my ears makes me cry most of the day. Is there anything to stop it? I am 89 yrs. old and I used to be so active & went out dancing etc. I can't drive (afraid to). Is there anything anything at all for ringing of the ears. I just bought hearing aids for $3,000.00 and they make the ringing seem so sharp. Now my church down the road is closing due to not enough people go and contribute money to it. It is a catholic church. I have lost most of my hair (wear wigs). I now have felt a big bump on the back of my head and am scared. I let my doctor know and have an appt. next week. Getting in to see dr. is a chore. They are so booked up. I have no friends to speak of - they have either died/moved to warmer climate etc. I cry most of the day. My kids have grandchildren and still working and can't see me too much. I wish my friend across the street could at least visit me every day and at lease just 10 minutes but she doesn't. I am sad and lonely. I used to go to see my favorite Elvis impersonator but he plays far from me and I can't/won't drive (no car). Where can I go? What can I do beside cry etc. Another thing I sometimes get so nervous that I am too scared to go out. I used to dance so much - but now 1 yr. later I feel wabbly dancing. Fast dancing you don't hold on to anyone - you are facing each other but no contact. I wake up with ringing ears and nervous crying and loneliness.