Hi JW,
I hear you about the stress caused by your husband lashing out. My husband has had blood cancer, a serious lung infection and a stroke. He was in fairly good shape until the stroke and then because of the location in the brain that the stroke affected he became very morose and angry. Because I am the only person he sees it all lands on me and I think I understand exactly how you feel about telling friends what is really happening. I don't want to load them with my troubles. I tried to explain his behavior to my daughters but they don't want to or can't hear. It made me feel very alone which is one reason I decided to join this support group. I am struggling too and feeling inadequate because I can't figure it out, so what I do is just remind myself that I am okay right now! in the moment, and I'll let the next moment take care of itself. I pray--for all of us who find ourselves in frightening and exhausting situations. I remember that one foundational truth of life is that everything changes, and often for the better. I am grateful for every morning, for beauty and kindness wherever I find it. Hang in there and I will be hanging there with you 🙂