Yeah, we are doing good. She is getting lots of drug induced sleep. Me, I haven’t gotten more than 5 hours in a night this month. They let me stay in her room with her in one of those uncomfortable recliner chairs. LOL, so I don’t think I’ll be getting much tonight either.

Otherwise, we are probably right where we are supposed to be. She seems to be at peace. Me, I’m still swing up and down. So much of something. I just don’t really understand what “something” is. I’ve always been an analytical thinker and this has been new territory for me. I hate that everyone (this site and home) thinks I was trying to make the decision for her. I was just trying to get answers to very confusing questions and emotions.

Even she thought it, which kills me that she thought I would try to influence her or put her health at risk like that. It has been a very lonely place to be. Maybe now that it is done we can start repairing the emotional trauma that it has caused. We’ll see what the future holds.

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