Perspective & Return to Mama Mode

Good morning!
I've been mentally composing my discussion for months. Finally, today I had an incentive to write an entry on our discussion group. First, I was prompted to thank a lady in a different group, thus leading me here...kind of a circuitous route...

"I do have some pain issues, but nothing to the extent that others are experiencing. I know we're not in any competition...lol
Thank you for sharing your experiences and willingness to help others. That's speaking gazillions for your character, your concern for humanity.
Let's ring in 2023 with cheers for safety, security and a sense of fulfillness. Here's to P.P.E.A.C.E & H.O.P.E
in our future endeavors.
My husband was in the USArmy for 22 years and I taught Exceptional Children & Curriculum.
We both have acronyms on our brains:
#1
Participation
Proactivity
Empowerment
Awareness
Collaboration
Enrichment

#2
Hear
Our
Prayers
Echo, echo, echo"

This brings me to part deux:
Depression does have its own pain issues: ebb & flow of inner tension, dis-"ease", anxiety, mitigating factors, suicidal ideations, infinity ♾️ & pain.
I've continued with my Spravato treatments, now about every 3 weeks, as well as a psychiatric appt every two weeks--thank God more than just a med check. To alleviate guilt and anxiety, I'm his last appointment of the day. WE talk, WE listen, & WE give feedback. Sometimes I cry
( less & less) & he doesn't.
I thrive on alarms & routine--a strategy for dealing w/ ADD. And an appointment with my therapist on alternate weeks.

I'm OK
I bought a T Shirt at Walmart: Professional Overthinker...🤔😀

I have a little undertow of depression, but nothing debilitating. I have no suicidal ideations.

Part 3

After 12 years of my daughter hearing: "Mrs. S, you need to eat less and exercise more" she was diagnosed with Cushing's disease. She had a tumor removed from her pituitary gland on 12/19/22--that's a whole different discussion. Very interesting. A combo of archaic medical attitudrs and lack of treatment leading to treatment with high tech, non invasive procedures...so gross, yet fascinating!

Which brings me to my Mama Mode.

My therapist told me years ago that I have the ability to rise to the occasion...it's not that easy. Sometimes, I have to be in the " just pushing thru--try harder" state.

Things have fallen into place. Logistically, I found accommodations for us, planned routes, times, coordinated appointments.
What I have been mindful of, still...are some criticisms I received earlier in the year. I, I, I...doesn't always mean being self-centered.
It does mean I looked at things from others' perspectives. Deep Diaphratic Bteathing.
Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.
Community Service & reevaluating WHY. Appreciation of my mentor who guided me thru bureaucratic miniscia. It would have been a slight to those who have helped me through Time N TALENT...those who have helped me on this site...
I'm in Mama mode. Taking care of others is therapeutic.
I'm in the right place, the right time, the right mood. My world is in alignment and my appreciation is overwhelming. My Awakening is in progress and I have a moral obligation to take advantage of the windows of opportunity opening widely.
So, here's to Cheers for 2023, filled with safety, security, and fulfillment through
P.P.E.A.C.E and H.O.P.E...
Amen!
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