I need help

Yes, "eyes on the prize" but don't forget that the most important parts of the prize are the moments you're in. One day at a time, one moment at a time. Each day is a prize. I have found that breaking it into days has helped me better deal with the moments. Continued good wishes...

NA meetings saved my life 8 years ago.. the opposite of Addiction is a Connection and its true.... local or online NA meetings will suggest a new way of life and I can testify without this practice I wouldn't be on earth! There's a 24/7 online na meeting worldwide that helps! https://www.nana247.org/

Hey Shane! So glad that you were able to find a good doctor. I hope he specializes in addiction. Some are truly intelligent, and some seem as dumb as a box of rocks. Anyway, it sounds like this one is very understanding. Hang in there. There will be some rough days. I experienced every single withdrawal that was listed on Benzobuddies.org. It was the worst thing that I have had to go through in my whole life. In 2018 I lost my mom and 6 months later, my black lab (cadaver dog) died. Little did I know that the worst was yet to come (benzo tolerance 3 months later.) After that, came Covid, and I was going through a nightmare of withdrawals while sick with Covid. I prayed a lot! I didn't want any help from doctors, since I didn't trust them or anyone else. When the veil came off of my eyes, I was able to soul search and realize how I got addicted in the first place--mind opening experience for sure! I could reach into my past and it was like I was there all over again. Being sober made my senses so much clearer and I was able to piece together the puzzle. I have peace now but I'm still learning. Keep pressing on and keep the faith. We stay strong by hanging in there together. Keep us posted.

Man I love you guys!!!!! Right now I’m in a mental battle with myself. I’m still tapering so I get mild withdrawal symptoms which I can handle it’s just going to be a long process since it’s been so long. But I’m here for it my eyes are still locked in the end. It’s definitely hard though your right. I’ve had more bad days than good but my kids are helping me more then I will know. I see a family doctor who has been helping me with nausea my vitals stuff like that and I’m getting ready to see an addiction specialist to either help me speed this up or show me a better way. So I’m in the right track just have to keep the train moving. Thank you so much for your words definetly keep them coming

Starting a journal wouldn't be a bad idea. That way, you can help someone else when you get through the journey.

Hello @snoopy13 and welcome to Connect!

I really appreciate your joining this discussion group on Addiction. You said, "the opposite of Addiction is a Connection" is right-on! Isolation is one of the worst things for addiction, but connection helps bring healing. We all need community when we are facing addiction.

Providing the 24/7 resource of NA is very helpful.

I'm sure the community here would like to get to know you better. Can you share a bit of your addiction journey and how you became stronger?

Drink lots of water, keep yourself busy, reach out to others who can support you in your struggles, pray and most of all, don't give up. People need you too!

I’ve actually been keeping one in my notes in my phone especially when I’m struggling like at night time when I’m the only one awake

Hi Everybody! My name is Erin, I live in NYC and I am 48 years, with 8 years clean and sober. I worked in the Fashion and Music Industries since I was 21 and after being sick of being sick and tired..I asked for help. This wasn't something easy since my career was about making things happen for other people and also I had been on my own since I was 17. I attended NA meetings (and even AA meetings when my work schedule got to crazy - whatever i could make after 10pm). I also got MusiCares to pay for an addiction therapist since I was broke and had no insurance. The people in my recovery groups were always there when I didn't wanna be therel, telling me it was worth it. I kept going, read books by people in recovery listened to music by people in recovery and I went to a meeting when most days I just wanted to give up and hit a bar. I started feeling different after 30 days, and at 6 months felt stronger day by day. Russell Brand has a book called Recovery and after I read it, it made me realize a lot about myself. I didn't need to be on drugs or alcohol to have a life. And every year it got better and I achieved more goals with every year that passed. I can't lie, at 8 years clean and sober I still have my struggles, my I figure them out with a clear head, and I'm aware of what my actions entail. I find life to be so much better in recovery..the support of people who get me, regardless of their race, social background or career gives me the opportunity to meet people for who they are, which is an addict like me, who lives the best life possible, and gets to feel the feelings and carry on!
Peace, Luv and Recovery!
Erin O

@snoopy13

I so appreciate you sharing your journey, Erin. You have definitely worked the program and you have a "clear head" now which is wonderful!

You're a great role model for others who are beginning to walk the recovery path. Can I mention you to others on Connect who might be new to recovery?