I had a transplant less that a year ago but it’s all still vivid. I would tell my friends and family that I was more afraid of not having a transplant than having one. I had mine at transplant center 2 hours away. I got a call one eve just before supper that there was a liver waiting for me and gave me 2 1/2 hours to get there. My sister was on call to take me there so off we went, along with our 85 year old mom. They were back and forthing about directions while I sat in the back seat, now terrified. Terrified. One there though it felt real in a less worrisome way. The caregivers I had were amazing and understood all of my fears. I felt almost Zen about it all, even lying on my stretcher by the operating room. Perhaps they gave me something to calm me and I was unaware! You will wake up after many hours and it’ll be over. You will feel so much better. Someone told me to focus on what I wanted to do after 6 months, and one year. It gets easier and you’ll get there.