I think this is nervousness: shaky hands when doing a dressing on a patient, or sometimes giving simple injections even i do it everyday. Most of all when giving reports to hospitalists or even my nursing assistants. When i need to see my own GP for my own back injury, my hands are so shaky it is so shameful. I tried to analize myself and thought maybe because I also work with him sometimes.
I find myself disorganized too, at home or at work.
I write a list of chores for the day for example: putting in laundry in the washer, and then cleaning the 2 bathrooms while waiting for my 1hr. laundry. At end of the day I forget to put the laundry in the dryer and I don't finish the first bathroom either, because I find myself doing other things for example when I see there are towels that needs to be put away. When I go to another room where i have to put the towels, I see chores to do there therefore forgot to continue cleaning the bathroom and the wet clothes that should be put in the dryer. In that room where I put the towels, if I think I need the vacuum, I will go downstairs to get it, but then I get the urge to vacuum downstairs too, so that I will not finish the 2 first chores in my list. At the end of the day, I will only accomplish one in my list.
Same scenario happens at work, i will make a list of tasks: focused assessment for 8-9 patients, wound dressings in between sheduled medications and helping my assistant with personal care for at least 4 patients. At the end of the shift, I feel so disorganized and not confident that I have done my best, and did only 2 of the wound dressings. I reflect on my day and I cannot remember why I got out of track, it is all like a blur.
Oh i remember that most of my patients have behavioral issues or 1-2 of them are on delirium. 😀
Good thing the next nurse are always considerate.
So..I thought mindfulness will help me, but where do I start. What is there that needs to be change in my routine?