@jazzmanfla I agree with @ken82. I apprecaite it is dificult but try to focus on any positive aspect of your life. My husband is an accute cirrhosis patient - alcohol induced. We've been through a very dificult 4 years of him developing large volume ascites, HE, seiure, varices, some malignancy in his liver which thankfully seems to have subsided after one radiation therapy. He also deeloped both umbilical and inguinal heria. teh latter which is very uncomfortable and cannot be repaired until he gets a new liver becaue of his ascites. He used to be a very active and physically fit person but the hernia stops him from even basic walking exercises. However we try to stay positive and focus every day on the good things we do have in our lives - family, a roof over our heads, food on the table, easy access to nature and medical treatment available to us. It's tough living alone but try to find comfort in music which today is wonderfully aviailable to us as no cost through Spotify, Soundcloud, MixDJ, Youtube etc. so many music Apps! We are in our 70's and when I feel down, music is a huge help. My husband ops for a good movie or education documentary which again are so easily available. I see your post is from November (I have just joined this group), but hope that you have been able to find comfort through something which you love.