@shepn7 I am a recent kidney donor and my recipient, who I've known for most of my life (I'm not related to this person) has been public about their severe mental health problems for decades. This person is an incredible person and I am grateful I was able to help them by donating. Additionally my daughter has been diagnosed with treatment resistant depression and borderline personality disorder. I see her struggles first hand and know if she ever needed a transplant I would be her biggest advocate. Your mental illness does not make you unworthy, nor do I know of anyone who would feel that way, especially the donor. I know me saying this doesn't instantly make it all OK in your view, but I wanted you to know I donated to someone with mental illness and I couldn't imaging not doing it. I'm hoping the support you receive on this forum and elsewhere helps bring you closer to accepting the gift without guilt.