I understand. I feel a little ungrateful sometimes. 🙂 I mentioned the books because those readings made it so clear to me that transplants did not work until the medicines were discovered. Many animals and desperate people died as they tried to figure out why a transplant would reject so quickly.
My home doctor says "they are nasty drugs but you need them".
My phone alarms several times a day for medicines. Mentioning medicine side effects, i have stomach ulcers and low Magnesium, both related to the drug side effects. So it's been scopes and Mg infusions and side effects of side effects (the gut doesn't like a dozen Mg pills daily!) I did have a hernia (it hurt!) fortunately caught and repaired one week after transplant. .
I do not feel like myself either! Five years, but my beloved husband died of pancreatic cancer shortly before my transplant, and now I have been isolated with COVID for over a year--I have much to be grateful for, but it is hard. Hang on--both of us.