Hi, @shepn7. If you lived near me, I would invite you over and we would sit in my backyard swing and share conversation while sipping on some iced tea. However, since that is not possible, I would like to suggest that you not be hard on yourself. Grief is an individual response and the time to let go of it is as varied as is the suggestions that you have been offered here.

I am aware that all of the suggestions that you have received are related to your feelings with your liver donor. I am also aware, as you mentioned in your first post, that you have experiences the loss of 3 special people within a short span of time. You are carrying a heavy burden that is likely compounded by your body's reaction to the post transplant medications. From my experience, my emotions can get out of whack (for lack of a better term) when I am under a high level of stress. Have you considered the possibility that the timing of your transplant anniversary and the deaths of your loved ones are part of your ongoing grief?
I want to share the Loss & Grief Discussion on Connect. It is a safe place where you can meet people who have experienced loss and grief. As a member on Connect you are welcome to read and to join any conversation. Your comments and questions are welcome anytime.
-Loss and Grief: How are you doing?
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/loss-and-grief-how-are-you-doing/
Shepn7, Have you discussed your grief with your transplant team? How is your physical health since transplant?