There are a surprising number of we D.I.D's around. I am mostly integrated but there are still some that have refused to do so. This is okay as there are times I cannot handle things. Finding a qualified doctor/therapist is difficult. I have had some that did far more harm than good. I am not here at connect very often as there have been more pressing matters. I gave up on doctors and therapists for help with this diagnosis. There were never any alters that caused problems. I am still learning from some of them and some things I will likely never know about. I know I have helpers within that are struggling. Trust vanished and things are what they were and are now. Acceptance is crucial. Hoping others can find the help they need. Abuse and neglect are difficult to overcome. Choose professionals wisely as there are many predators in the mental health system. I learned this the hard way.
Parus is right, there are many of us fractured souls around. More than regular folks suspect I am willing to say.
Remember, many NORMAL folks don't want to hear about abuse that is great enough to break children into pieces.
I think the greatest thing I was taught to do was to start journaling. That gave my HELPERS inside a voice. So they could share who and why they were. And then I could help them, they needed to be heard, recognized and thanked for what they did to help the awfulness of what was happening back then.
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Yes, many therapists want to help, and I learned to be wary, cuz they were just practicing on me.
I was one of the lucky ones cuz God always lead me to the next therapist for me. It was folks who lead group therapy I had challenges with.
So I started my own group thru the computer, with many folks in other countries. Oh, did I share I am a
DO WHAT EVER IT TAKES kind of girl? Well, I am!
My memories started in 1986. No therapist was ready for my memories, I will tell you that!
.
Last November, I FINISHED my healing. Yes, it was a 33 year journey. Why did I keep going?
.
Cuz I was worth it.
.
I wish you all well. Bright Wings
Keep coming back cuz we care.
Lisa Lucier, Moderator | @lisalucier | Jul 8, 2019
Hi, @sanchopanza - Thanks for the helpful clarification on Dissociative Identity Disorder as the new name given to what used to be called Multiple Personality Disorder, and welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect.
@lisalucier That terrible things did happen. The parts experiencing the brunt of abuse are fragile. They need to know they are safe now. I realize it is hard for them to believe. Maybe as hard for them to believe as it is for me to believe the things from the past.
Hi everyone, I do think that DID can be cured. But I think that only happens when you grow old enough and strong enough to absorb all the pain and trauma that you pushed out of awareness when you were little. Basically, you have to reparent yourself. You also have to be able to accept everything that happened and allow yourself to feel the emotions. It's very hard but doable. Then you need to forgive. Forgiveness is very important. I think then you can move on with your life as a whole person.
I came to Mayo Clinic almost two years ago thinking I had Parkinson's Disease, had been previously diagnosed as Essential Tremors. I was 64 at the time. I was delighted to know that I did not have Parkinson's Disease or even Essential Tremors after four days of testing. I was diagnosed with Complex Trauma/PTSD and required a Psychologist who specializes in these areas. My Neurologist back home had the perfect Psychologist in mind. He met with me and agreed to accept my case if I agreed to come weekly with the understanding that this could take years. I liked him and agreed to the terms. I'm into my second year of therapy with him now. I have discovered that I wasn't only clinically depressed as I'd been treated for that for a good twenty years. Complex Trauma/PTSD causes depression. I also realized through therapy that I did indeed have DID as I'd lived the first 18 years of my life in hell. I am grateful that Mayo was able to help me find out what was going on with my body and mind. What a wonderful facility and group of doctors! I'm almost 66 now and each day is a new beginning for me. I have a Service Dog who alerts me when I'm going to have an episode or a flashback, I go sit down, he gets up on my lap and applies 60# of compression therapy while he winds his long neck around mine and licks the back of my neck to help me stay present. I have a wonderfully supportive husband. DID when diagnosed by a good Psychologist who specializes in trauma is very treatable, which has been an amazing journey for me. I still have a long way to go, I feel fortunate to be well equipped to handle the challenges.
I came to Mayo Clinic almost two years ago thinking I had Parkinson's Disease, had been previously diagnosed as Essential Tremors. I was 64 at the time. I was delighted to know that I did not have Parkinson's Disease or even Essential Tremors after four days of testing. I was diagnosed with Complex Trauma/PTSD and required a Psychologist who specializes in these areas. My Neurologist back home had the perfect Psychologist in mind. He met with me and agreed to accept my case if I agreed to come weekly with the understanding that this could take years. I liked him and agreed to the terms. I'm into my second year of therapy with him now. I have discovered that I wasn't only clinically depressed as I'd been treated for that for a good twenty years. Complex Trauma/PTSD causes depression. I also realized through therapy that I did indeed have DID as I'd lived the first 18 years of my life in hell. I am grateful that Mayo was able to help me find out what was going on with my body and mind. What a wonderful facility and group of doctors! I'm almost 66 now and each day is a new beginning for me. I have a Service Dog who alerts me when I'm going to have an episode or a flashback, I go sit down, he gets up on my lap and applies 60# of compression therapy while he winds his long neck around mine and licks the back of my neck to help me stay present. I have a wonderfully supportive husband. DID when diagnosed by a good Psychologist who specializes in trauma is very treatable, which has been an amazing journey for me. I still have a long way to go, I feel fortunate to be well equipped to handle the challenges.
Healing is possible.
I ended up integrating 150 personalities thru the years.
Why, cuz I never gave up.
I recently found another one, how do I know?
Cuz i hear in my brain when i see something on a table, "take that and keep it."
No, i know that's not me, but someone else emerging.
It is what it is, my plan is to attend a Shamanic training session for 3 days.
I know He will be integrated when i am finished.
How do i know that???
Cuz I am a do what ever it takes kind of girl.
Smiling at you, Bright Wings
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There are a surprising number of we D.I.D's around. I am mostly integrated but there are still some that have refused to do so. This is okay as there are times I cannot handle things. Finding a qualified doctor/therapist is difficult. I have had some that did far more harm than good. I am not here at connect very often as there have been more pressing matters. I gave up on doctors and therapists for help with this diagnosis. There were never any alters that caused problems. I am still learning from some of them and some things I will likely never know about. I know I have helpers within that are struggling. Trust vanished and things are what they were and are now. Acceptance is crucial. Hoping others can find the help they need. Abuse and neglect are difficult to overcome. Choose professionals wisely as there are many predators in the mental health system. I learned this the hard way.
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1 ReactionParus is right, there are many of us fractured souls around. More than regular folks suspect I am willing to say.
Remember, many NORMAL folks don't want to hear about abuse that is great enough to break children into pieces.
I think the greatest thing I was taught to do was to start journaling. That gave my HELPERS inside a voice. So they could share who and why they were. And then I could help them, they needed to be heard, recognized and thanked for what they did to help the awfulness of what was happening back then.
.
Yes, many therapists want to help, and I learned to be wary, cuz they were just practicing on me.
I was one of the lucky ones cuz God always lead me to the next therapist for me. It was folks who lead group therapy I had challenges with.
So I started my own group thru the computer, with many folks in other countries. Oh, did I share I am a
DO WHAT EVER IT TAKES kind of girl? Well, I am!
My memories started in 1986. No therapist was ready for my memories, I will tell you that!
.
Last November, I FINISHED my healing. Yes, it was a 33 year journey. Why did I keep going?
.
Cuz I was worth it.
.
I wish you all well. Bright Wings
Keep coming back cuz we care.
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7 ReactionsHi, @sanchopanza - Thanks for the helpful clarification on Dissociative Identity Disorder as the new name given to what used to be called Multiple Personality Disorder, and welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect.
This Mayo Clinic information on the condition and the name change also may be helpful https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/dissociative-disorders/symptoms-causes/syc-20355215.
@sanchopanza - have you or someone you know experienced Dissociative Identity Disorder?
@parus - you mentioned you are still learning from some of your alters. Will you share more about what you are learning from them?
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4 Reactions@lisalucier That terrible things did happen. The parts experiencing the brunt of abuse are fragile. They need to know they are safe now. I realize it is hard for them to believe. Maybe as hard for them to believe as it is for me to believe the things from the past.
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5 ReactionsI believe it is the spirit that has been fractured. A thought.
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1 ReactionHello @ihatediabetes,
It has been a while since you last posted on Connect. I hope you are doing well. Will you post again when convenient? I'd love to hear from you.
I came to Mayo Clinic almost two years ago thinking I had Parkinson's Disease, had been previously diagnosed as Essential Tremors. I was 64 at the time. I was delighted to know that I did not have Parkinson's Disease or even Essential Tremors after four days of testing. I was diagnosed with Complex Trauma/PTSD and required a Psychologist who specializes in these areas. My Neurologist back home had the perfect Psychologist in mind. He met with me and agreed to accept my case if I agreed to come weekly with the understanding that this could take years. I liked him and agreed to the terms. I'm into my second year of therapy with him now. I have discovered that I wasn't only clinically depressed as I'd been treated for that for a good twenty years. Complex Trauma/PTSD causes depression. I also realized through therapy that I did indeed have DID as I'd lived the first 18 years of my life in hell. I am grateful that Mayo was able to help me find out what was going on with my body and mind. What a wonderful facility and group of doctors! I'm almost 66 now and each day is a new beginning for me. I have a Service Dog who alerts me when I'm going to have an episode or a flashback, I go sit down, he gets up on my lap and applies 60# of compression therapy while he winds his long neck around mine and licks the back of my neck to help me stay present. I have a wonderfully supportive husband. DID when diagnosed by a good Psychologist who specializes in trauma is very treatable, which has been an amazing journey for me. I still have a long way to go, I feel fortunate to be well equipped to handle the challenges.
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3 ReactionsHealing is possible.
I ended up integrating 150 personalities thru the years.
Why, cuz I never gave up.
I recently found another one, how do I know?
Cuz i hear in my brain when i see something on a table, "take that and keep it."
No, i know that's not me, but someone else emerging.
It is what it is, my plan is to attend a Shamanic training session for 3 days.
I know He will be integrated when i am finished.
How do i know that???
Cuz I am a do what ever it takes kind of girl.
Smiling at you, Bright Wings
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