borderline personality disorder - newly diagnosed

well said -- being on the outside looking in and unable to control it. I was diagnosed with BPD two days ago. I am frantically researching and looking for ways to get it under control. I have so much anger sometimes, I take it out on my husband, and he is undeserving of it, but I am struggling to get it under control. I start counseling on Wednesday, but until then I am learning everything I can, I have ordered books, and writing down all of my nasty behaviors in order to raise my awareness. It's encouraging to know that there are others that know how I feel, and understand this hell.