@alamogal635- Good morning. I am so glad that you have reached out to Connect with this subject. When I made my first trip to the grocery store after my first cancer. I knew 3 ladies who wound up in the check-out line in front of me. They all had had breast cancer and had had chemo. I felt inferior because I hadn't needed chemo. For some strange reason, back then, I felt that without chemo my cancer wasn't important enough, or bad enough, like a mini-cancer, a subordinate in relation to all other cancers. It wasn't until after my 2nd cancer when I did have chemo, that I knew that I had been way wrong in my thinking. I was comparing myself to others thereby diminishing my worth.

How can having lung cancer be minor? Having to look over our shoulders is the bane and badge of courage after a diagnosis of Cancer. The Big C! After all the years since my first cancer, coming on 23 yrs in October, I might need to move more of my body looking over my shoulder, but I still do it.

I have had a horrible time with COVID-19 and my lung cancer. Every feeling seems exaggerated and huge. I don't know how life will look like if we get a handle on this virus or a good vaccine, but I do know that we can adapt and feel more in power as time goes by. About two weeks before my CT follow-up I begin to get very anxious with Scanxiety. You might be feeling this now. This is also another badge of courage for us. Grounding at this time is important. See if you can make a plan too about what you will need to do if you need another treatment or what you will do to celebrate.

I am so happy that you are back. I found that it takes years to learn to live with cancer and it's always an adjustment. How are you doing this now that is different than a couple of years ago?