@annmarry1 Good morning. I’m so sorry about the death of your best friend and the other family members you have cared for. It takes a special person to provide such care. Sometimes grief comes long before a death when we realize that this is no longer the person we knew for all those years. We can lash out in anger because we’re angry at the world, at the situation we’re in. 2020 only increased all of our feelings and there was no way to handle them.
Forgive yourself and don’t beat up on yourself. Just say, I loved her and did the best that I could.
We’re always here for you, should you need us