I am so sorry to hear about your husbands passing. Grieving is extremely difficult. My daughter, 45 passed suddenly in June and I have cried and am sick inside every day. It is tough. She was my life and my sunshine. They say it gets easier and memories become sweeter. I pray for strength fir you in the months to come. If you ever wish to chat, I am Kathi from Hampton Hall.
Im so sorry. I share in your sorrow.