About ready to scream, been bad month

P let the lavender piton Siamese out on the 2nd we both walked the yard i did till could do no more Monday1st i woke up with shoulder hurting and it got where could barely move it event o get dress was a chore - any way to hunt the kitten he decided tiller had to be started in the tall gras wrapped the tines up good with the grass and the cable from the satellite dish to bedroom tv argued with direct-tv about what was wrong they would not accept that i knew a well bent if not broken cable repairman came out on Thursday 3rd and decided to screw it to the side of the mobile home - and right through the electrical wiring for the offset had to call P's brother-in-law in for re-enforcement as I wanted it repaired properly right - as we had to be in Indy on the 5th I was going to cancel if not repaired right do not need an electrical fire and lose what little i got and my genealogy records trailer would be no loss really its a piece of s--t 1978 falling apart would be faster excuse to get out of here to better accommodations but not way to do it .... supervised he fixed it properly... hauled a load of scrap off and found someone to help cut up heavier stuff so better $$ out of it - got one hugh homemade fork lift gone that has sit out in front yard since 2016.... Friday 28th was bad i sat in hare and semi cried all day think the whole year month hit been a year since RUss died (June 28th)... Sat 29th went to town and the van/car vibrate more than usual and very different so called P's brother-in-law to test drive he did not have to - - passer side tires had flat spots - - drivers side major problem the wire cord was showing out of tire and it had busted through on the inside
could only see by taking pic with camera it was frayed splintered and looked like a "bad hair day" cancelled his ct's scans out for Monday made them on the 3rd and then went back today - good news/bad news by ct's the right Supraclavicular lymph node(s) are slowly shrinking don't go back to radiologist tll 17th dec - left axillary lymph node in armpit has started to swell & their is one or two around the esophagus that is enlarged - he had he labs/dr/ infusion today he still wants to keep him on the Prembo KEYTRUDA® (pembrolizumab) | Anti–PD-1 Immunotherapy as everything else is looking good and main tumor too - ct's in 6 to 9 weeks to see what is goign on not suree what plans is if still growing 🙁 The survey done - the variance passed and the appraisals done - just waiting to get into lawyer to deed off the 5a to the sister to see if there is a nice attitude and more help but i doubt both work - and she wanted the full 69a.... been a wet farm season a lot of ground not planted - the 69 is the 40 thats on sale hold did not get planted but its cash rent when get the 5a deed off I will know what i got left have been scouting out new/used newer model trucks too and start on my house in culver its 114+ i think its beeter try to make a part of it livable rather than buy more property but cross that bridge when get there or find place to rent but will have to where we can take the doxie and cat.... P's birthday Sunday will be 58... Sep/Oct will be 3 years when it all started with him seems like yeasterday... I am hanging in maybe just by a thread buy i am hanging on tight I know God will provide