Lioness, It's so sad that illness or lack of a fishing buddy we have to give up things we have enjoyed throughout our lives. My daughter says that " Fly fishing on a river is the closest her father gets to a religious experience." Partly true! This past year has been very hard not being out on a river. On a river is a time when I can get away from all the issues I think are Major and Overwhelming. Somehow when you come back to them they have either solved themselves or you find the answer to them right in front of you.
We all need to do that once in while! Go outside the box! That maybe part of my feeling better for the first time in a year! Week before this my daughter called and said that there were some car races in the little town in Northern New Mexico where she lives. My grandson said he wanted to go. (He and I went once last year.) She asked if I would come up and take him. Even though I was not feeling really well I said yes and made the three hour trip. (My grandsons father has very little to do with him.)
He and I ate diner and headed for the track, a mile away. He is 8 and it reminded me of the first time my dad took me to the races, I was also 8.
Anyway we laughed, joked, watched people and had a "BOYS NIGHT OUT" that he could not have had with my daughter. It was a two race weekend and I thought he woouldn't want to go the second night. I was wrong! He talked about the night before all day! So we went back and had more fun than the night before!
When I came back home I woke up Monday AM feeling like I hadn't felt in over a year!
Twenty years ago I beat Stage IV colon cancer. How? Because at the time my work took me from the Mexican boarder to the Canadian boarder. I was traveling in a RV, so home was where I parked every night. I was on a river all or part of 150+ days that year. It was the Best year bisiness wise I have ever had! I have been cancer free since then!
I guess my point in relating all of this on the board is to maybe help others to go out and do something out of the box that has limited us because of our disabilities or disease!
Our mind and spirit control so much of us and our life.
Thinking last night after I posted my plans, I got thinking. I was conditictory. Yes I have felt amazing, but it has only been a week! All of us with Fibromyalgia, Lyme, and Chronic Fatigue know that this can happen. You feel so good all of a suden you want to go out and do everything. So I changed my mind, Instead I am going to start the YMCA Silver Sneakers Yoga class this week. I need to build my self back up to where I am safe being on a river by myself!
Plenty of time left in the summer to go fishing! I want to be strong enough to enjoy myself and not make it an ordeal!
As I have done before I want to Thank Everyone who has read this and hopefully you can take away something that may help you.
I'm sure I am not alone when I say How Much of a Life Saver Mayo Connect has been to me!
It's a place where you can talk to people who will listen and not be judgemental and who understand what you are going through!
You all are such Great Spirits!
My Love, Thanks, and Blessings go out to all of you for your help and understanding!
Sundance (RB)

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