@grannybrenda, you mention that you continue to have a challenging time, even though the medical crisis is now passed. Did I understand that correctly? It's as if, now that you are no longer full tilt in action with caregiving, you're subconscious is registering what you went through. Would that be a fair interpretation? I'm not a professional, but that makes complete sense to me. I can also see where meditation would help bring you back to the here and now, where things are okay.

Mindfulness is often bandied about these days, but I think mindfulness exercises can help to keep us focus on the moment. Dr. Benzo has produced some nice mindful breathing videos that you can see here: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/page/mindfulness-in-health/tab/resource-58/

Which meditation apps have you found helpful?