Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety.

Well, I’ve had some set backs. Had suicide thoughts and have anger at least 2 days a week that make me extremely confrontational. Visited the ER 2 weeks ago and had another panic attack in front of the crew. So ..... I ‘m back to sitting with a therapist to talk through issues that are now returning and have never been resolved. Thanks for this moment to write about it.

Thank you for letting us know about what you are going through now. We all have our setbacks. What we do with them is what matters, and you have wisely chosen to get more therapy. Do you believe there may have been something else going on as well, such as medication changes, diet changes, different sleep patterns?
Wishing you well in your journey to being well.

Thought you all might enjoy getting to know one of the members in this "Importance of Focusing on the Positive with Depression and Anxiety" discussion a little more. Please take a moment to read the Connect member spotlight on @johnhans, https://connect.mayoclinic.org/page/about-connect/newsfeed-post/encouraging-others-by-letting-them-know-ive-made-it-meet-johnhans/.

@johnhans Hey John, I so enjoyed your Connect spotlight. It’s always comforting to get to know someone who is familiar with your issues. My family is also from Pennsylvania. We have depression, anxiety, and auto immune disorders through our genes. The story has been passed down about my great grandfather, who used to “take to the bed” at the beginning of every winter and stay until spring. If that isn’t Seasonal Affective Disorder, I don’t know what is! Anyway, it’s nice to meet you! Send some of that “wintry stuff” down to me! ...........Karen

@karen00 we are not that wintry this fall. We are having temps in the 30s during the day and no snow. Thanksgiving is forecast to be rainy. I am always worse with depression and anxiety in the Fall.

I had my grandson over this morning and we played Monopoly and talked and laughed as we played. I am so blessed to be a grand parent.

I'm finally figuring out in my life that missing out being a Child when I was a child has finally come back in a vengeance much later in my life. I retired in 2013 but since then I have had periodic very angry outbursts that I was clueless to why they were happening. I finally had suicidal thoughts and depression like I never had before and went into the ER before I either hurt someone or myself. I came out and got into therapy again and with my doctor and my therapist I am moving in the right direction again. I was diagnosed 7 years ago with GAD and have been taking Lexapro. This week I was diagnosed with PTSD from childhood. I have been living through my childhood and didn't know it. I'm finding out more as I talk to my siblings. MY dad was scary and ruled his kingdom inside the house with fear and doom. I was afraid everyday of my childhood. He beat my Mom and when she left the house when it happened he would say that we were next. I was always protecting my Mom from him and had night terrors when I was a child. My childhood was taken from me by him.

@stsopoci I am so sorry you had a bad parent. Some people seem to want power over others by abusing children. As I have written before, judges call such people little murderers as they murder the spirit of the child. I was just reading of Mr. Rogers and his TV show. He stated that the chief job of parents is to create trust. Unfortunately your parent and others create mistrust. Hopefully your therapy will help you in dealing with this, but know we are here to help as well. We have empathy that will not leave.

I think your very brave, to try and protect your precious mum , we understand this is why your reliving your precious childhood which should have been fun safe and secure , place of happiness where you and your precious siblings could grow up without fear especially of those that should have been your comforter and gentle teacher , ( it's all too often the case, so sorry you missed out on your precious childhood , this was issue for many of us ) i know i can't totally understand how you feel , each of us are unique as individuals each precious child needs love and kindness along with true love never fails even though you might be feeling helpless useless unloved your not alone. Do hope this helps in your precious recovery some how. Praying helps too faith in someone that will never treat you unkind is God he is bigger than our hearts. HUG from chilly old England kind regards swift * :- ) keep smiling your much stronger than you know.

sounds good i find my solo rides even help a lot dont ride in groups as i loose them on hills