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Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety.
Depression & Anxiety | Last Active: Nov 7, 2022 | Replies (623)Comment receiving replies
I'm finally figuring out in my life that missing out being a Child when I was a child has finally come back in a vengeance much later in my life. I retired in 2013 but since then I have had periodic very angry outbursts that I was clueless to why they were happening. I finally had suicidal thoughts and depression like I never had before and went into the ER before I either hurt someone or myself. I came out and got into therapy again and with my doctor and my therapist I am moving in the right direction again. I was diagnosed 7 years ago with GAD and have been taking Lexapro. This week I was diagnosed with PTSD from childhood. I have been living through my childhood and didn't know it. I'm finding out more as I talk to my siblings. MY dad was scary and ruled his kingdom inside the house with fear and doom. I was afraid everyday of my childhood. He beat my Mom and when she left the house when it happened he would say that we were next. I was always protecting my Mom from him and had night terrors when I was a child. My childhood was taken from me by him.
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I think your very brave, to try and protect your precious mum , we understand this is why your reliving your precious childhood which should have been fun safe and secure , place of happiness where you and your precious siblings could grow up without fear especially of those that should have been your comforter and gentle teacher , ( it's all too often the case, so sorry you missed out on your precious childhood , this was issue for many of us ) i know i can't totally understand how you feel , each of us are unique as individuals each precious child needs love and kindness along with true love never fails even though you might be feeling helpless useless unloved your not alone. Do hope this helps in your precious recovery some how. Praying helps too faith in someone that will never treat you unkind is God he is bigger than our hearts. HUG from chilly old England kind regards swift * :- ) keep smiling your much stronger than you know.
Thankful for your thoughtful replies and I hope you are all seeking help for your mental health issues. It’s been Very revealing to me that it’s taken me decades to find out what has been bothering me subconsciously. I’m in good hands now like I’ve never been before. I’m moving toward the light finally after years of denial.
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@stsopoci I am so sorry you had a bad parent. Some people seem to want power over others by abusing children. As I have written before, judges call such people little murderers as they murder the spirit of the child. I was just reading of Mr. Rogers and his TV show. He stated that the chief job of parents is to create trust. Unfortunately your parent and others create mistrust. Hopefully your therapy will help you in dealing with this, but know we are here to help as well. We have empathy that will not leave.