@smilie We care here. Like @merpreb said, it's terrible to feel so down. Can you pinpoint what caused these the start of this down slide? Can you put the brakes on that thinking and slow yourself down to a crawl? Are there tools you have used in the past that you could pull out of your closet again for this episode? Perhaps things like gentle exercise, or counseling, or journaling, or some interactive groups? We do not want you are being yourself and please if you are considering that call for help. Don't try to be so strong that you ignore your own safety. We Care.
Ginger